Suicide

Heard a friend talking about someone suicide sometime ago and passed away. It tells me that human in vulnerable. Sometimes somewhere things will make you weak and emotionally down. You can't even control what you are hurting yourself...your family...your friends. Have you ever think to commit suicide?? Have you been thru this period in your life? Honestly I did. And I think it was silly thought after I've been thru. It is not worth for you to leave your life for one thing (small or big). What I've learnt is no matter how the problems are, how serious it is, you still will find your way out. Non of things in this world unsolve. When you say "I Want Suicide"... think of your family, your friends, ppl around you. You think you leave the world is get rid of your problems but do you think of others on behalf? How much you've hurt them if you left? They even more painful than you've gone thru.

So, no matter how deep down you are, think positively, be optimistic. You will get thru the hard time if you face it bravery. You have family and friends around...look for them to talk about your problems...share with them. Express your frust your thoughts. Don't keep everything to yourself. Don't try to be alone...diversify your attention if possible. Do something else that you like to do. Talk and talk and talk to anyone you trust. You will slowly change your perspective on the problem. Usually one person look at the problem is only on one side of angle. We should not. We should be rounded mind to look at things more perspective. Different angle you will see different things. Although I know say is easy than action. Try it. Learn from the samples around you, learn from your past, learn from others. You will more than happy to surprise yourself.

Treasure your life...treasure everything you have....treasure peoples around you. Love what you do now. Love yourself and ppl will love you as well. Don't give up anything!

"What Did Not Kill You, Make You Stronger!" (learnt this from someone ;p) make sense?

Step Up

Yay yay!! finally managed to watch "Step Up" movie last night. It was very very cool movie. I love it. Especially the lead actor and actress. The actor handsome and cun body :p. The actress not so pretty but I like her body..very firm and the way she dances very very attractive! How I wish I can dance like her. Quite a good movie. Go watch it if you haven't ;) I plan to keep a copy of the movie and the soundtracks also nice! cun cun cun! hehe

Last night 9 of us went for the movie. I think if we go watch later the movie will not showing anymore. The showing time limited but lucky last night everyone can make it. 6 of gym "sisters" and 2 of my friends together gether watch it. hehe. First time I've bought the tickets online with credit card. Didn't know the price inclusive 5% tax of each tix. but for conveniency and confirmed for the tix is ok to pay for it :p

Went yum char at steven's corner after movie. hahaha everyone talk abt the movies how cun the actors and the scenes...good laughs. So fast they plan to go bangkok again in Jan! duhhhh I wish I can join them but planning to go Perth in Jan also. And then they always banned me to join them together to Bangkok one! :( I don't care...next time I must follow! kekeke...may be Phuket in March?? :p

At mamak bump into the guys working downstairs of my office. what a small world. We left at 12 midnite. Got home wash up and prepare my breakfast and lunch today. Lately I always prepare my meals next day. Try to control diet :p I find that my body weak nowadays. not enough nutrition. So decided to cook some chinese herbal soup for lunch. And had sanwiches with lots of vege for breakfast. Besides I'm easy gasp...obvious when I'm teaching class. So someone advices I should get some chinese herbal such as red dates, "tong sum" or "kei ji". Now everyday am taking tong sum drink. hopefully it helps.

After Effects!

Today morning when I woke up first thing I can feel is my whole body aching!! That's the effects from yesterday workshop. My shoulders, back, butt, arms everywhere sore :( The worst part is on back shoulder. Pain even you just touch it. I was lying on couch and watching tv and waiting for team teach at 4pm IOI. It rained heavily few hours before the team teach. I was so so so lazy and sleepy...thinking can I skip the team teach? of course I can't. I've arrange it and I must do it. Must discipline. So lucky the rain stopped. Went TT with Leo and the members from IOI awesome. There were rocks and very supportive. More happening then anywhere. hehe. Had a good team teach.

Now it's time to learn new BJam release 39. Just now while shopping for groceries while listening to the musics....

Gosh...body still aching :( wa wa wa wa wa...I think I need massage the most now! hohoho

Quarterly Workshop

Went to instructor quarterly workshop today at KLCC. The gym is lousy. They don't provide us locker...so we have to put our bags around the studio. The studio is big enough but not a nice one. The gym management restricted us to other area of the gym. sucks. Most pissed off was the guy take care over there keep asking us keep quiet. What they think they are?

Talk about the workshop. It was great. I did BCombat, BStep and BJam only. Combat added new moves which is capoera movie. Not easy...I find that the new releases getting harder and harder especially to teach :(. Although Jam is fun for this release but very very hard to teach. It introduced Bollywood in it and it calls BollyJam. This time BJam has Hip Hop, BollyJam, Latin, Dance4Life (contemporary and disco feel). Just now watched the dvd and it was cool and rock! I like to watch it. However think about coaching is really hard and the techniques need time to drill down. Like most of the musics, Buttons by pussycat dools, Hips Don't Lie by Shakira, Boom Boom by Chayanne, Deja Vu by beyonce, Mesmerize, Sexy Back by justin timberlake, SOS by rihanna, London Bridge by Fergie and Dance4Life by DJ Tiesto....all are nice songs and good feel to dance...

Wedding Dinner

Went for Kai Reen's wedding dinner last night. I left an hour earlier from office. Went home changed and left house around 6:30pm. Surprisingly not really jam all the way to jalan imbi. I was there at 7pm. First time I'm on time to any wedding dinner :p chinese culture...always late to dinner. It was raining night and many met terrible traffice jam. Lucky me huh. But I was sitting alone while waiting others that I know to arrive. The dinner started at 9pm! waited 2 hours only can eat...gosh...why the wedding dinner always like that? But compare to my previous wedding dinner...it was started early at 7ish leh...may be it is different custom...

The dishes so so...had wine whole night. Towards the end we keep yum seng with the bride n groom. keep bottoms up the wine...I was high and can say getting drunk because of these!! I've got a surprise. My friend that I wish to meet came to look for me. Happy for that. So sweet and nice.... ;) Stop by at new bar BED for a while then head home...too tired and sleepy.

Some photos taken during dinner ... still waiting for them :D...will post once got it.

Sports

As you all know that now I spent most of my time in gym. Before I joined the gym I did lots of sports before but no more time for all these anymore for now. I wish I can do the sports I like again but I doubt that.

I was very active in school activities during primary till high school...I played netball, volleyball, school band, four seasons drums, jogging, badminton, squash, basketball.
When out from college, I've started to play bowling with my sister....then I get hook up with it. I can play alone for 10 games per day....and always look for my my bowling buddy and 2 of us just compete to each other. That was fun time and I miss it. When working I played tennis, basketball, rock climbing and paintball with colleagues. Did rock climbing few times and I love to do it. Hope can do it again.

I think basically that what sports I've done. Wish to play bowling again and get some challenge. Will you challenge me? hehe

Exhausted

These few days I feel very very tired and I got stiff shoulder. It's very painful....I'm trying to rest more but unable to get rid of it. According to Jazz2DMax if I got such problem means I've a lot of pressures...no doubt these few days I've got lots of pressures and very concentrating to read the source codes and solving all the problems...I think my mind and body getting tired.

Today can't rest as well...later got to attend wedding dinner. Estimate will til late and tomorrow morning have to wake up early attend workshop. :( I need TLC :((

I wish to meet someone that leaving tomorrow...but seem that time is not allow :( I'm just very very down now...and very very sleepy....

What Will I Do Next Few Days?

Yesterday (Wednesday)...is my rest night at home but still not really rest. Went home and took a nap till 8ish. Then go yum char with Raymond, Clement, Joey & Larry. Talked about their Bangkok trip experiences. Confused with the names and their relationship hahaha. But then was fun to know about it. They plan to go again soon...this time they ask me go along. hiak...last time I wanted go along they said I'll get bored wor...if I do really go along I'll definitely bring another friend with me! So that I won't alone if they go to the places not suitable me to go hehehe. However this Bangkok trip gotta defer donno till when as I got plan to go to Perth in January. And coming months I need to travel to Singapore for work. sob sob....hopefully the working time not crashed with BJam tuitions...launches...and my trip! Hard to say...it's unpredictable :(

Tonight (Thursday) - No more Laundry...ehehehe will go for movie, Happy Feet with CI, 3 leng luis (3 of them are BI). Plan to have dinner at Chilis then Belgian Beer some where else but I donno where. hohoho

Tomorrow (Friday) - Kai Reen's wedding dinner...aiks...its 7pm. So gotta plan to leave office earlier then get home to change and dress up. Worry tomorrow sure traffic jam to KL. It always be on Friday night :( Hopefully will not too late be there. Excited to see how pretty she is and knowing her friends. It's Gold theme but non of us manage to get gold dress :( sorry babe...I've tried hard. But will try to wear pretty pretty to the wedding :p

Saturday - It's Les Mills Quarter 4 instructor workshop!! This time a bit different. It helds at Twin Towers Fitness Centre @ KLCC...never been there donno how it looks like. Wonder is it happening as in FF? Looking forward for the workshoop. I'll be joining BodyCombat, BodyStep, BodyJam & BodyBalance!! hohoho. with all the buddies kekeke. I wish to watch Step Up, donno the rest wanna watch after workshop? Will ask and see :D

Sunday - plan to have team teach...yet to call up to ask. will update if confirmed.... then will meet up my friend talk abt the crystal accessories thingy. He is starting the stall soon and wanna get my stocks for sale. But I havent prepare much stocks for him :p die die....so this sunday will discuss what design I should do more then only I'll do it :D bzbzbzbzbzbzbz....sigh

Souvenirs

Just got a souvenir from my best buddies from gym last night. Am so happy and love them very much. Thanks to them that they really thought of buying me something that I would like. And I feel special because they specially get souvenir for me but not for everyone :p *muaks muaks* to all of them *wink*

These are the souvenirs they bought for me from their Bangkok trip :D The top special with lots of sequins and 3D flowers sew on it. (but hard to wash....) hehehe. Wrapped it in lovely pink wrapping paper. They knew I like pink color...so nice...hehe

On Monday I've got a souvenir from Tweets as well. Her gift is cute and I like it also. Also bought from Bangkok. Actually she went last month but only able to pass me this Monday :p Thanks to you gal. hehe. And one more thing I wanna thank her...last night she purposely rush home to get gym gear to join my team teach. Nice of her. Thanks for the support!! I'll join your balance class more even thought I don't join much one hehehe.
cute little elephant...

Some time ago, I've got this souvenir from CI....and also waited for long only got it from him. The souvenir is from Taiwan. Something different ;) I wish to go Taiwan for long but yet still no plan :( hopefully next year can go :p I wan go there eat eat eat and shop shop shop till I dropped kekekeke
"Touch Your Heart"??

Unexpected Night

I was stress out yesterday and feel like scream it out loud. Actually planned to go Combat class and it is good chance for me to scream :p. Thought of do some machines like abs stretch etc but end up went in to Jason's BJam class and did half of the class! Did the tracks which long time I didn't do and nearly forgotten kekeke. Right after BJam then is BCombat. During the class I was shouting, kick, punch as much as I can to release some tensions. Yes it did help. I feel release after the class. Sweat very much. OK lar, thought after combat can rest. Who knows got 2 leng luis (1 is team teaching), leng jai CI and my sifu joining BBalance...so I just join them together gether have fun. I seldom do BBalance and last night it just my 4th or 5th time joining balance in my entire life. Oh gosh...too long time no stretching quite hard for me. but lucky last nite tracks were not that hard. Thank god. hahaha funny part is after the class only I realized I've did prenancy option for certain post! kekekeke. aiyah forgive me la...I was confused with the moves :p Feeling good after balance....and yes, last night just did 2 and half classes....hohoho not bad. gambatte!

I'm super tired today...because last night after all the classes went for yun char with the gang till 1am....sob sob...not enough sleep liao. tired tired tired :p

Purple Theme

Went for a wedding dinner last Sunday. My ex-colleague from MYOB. Again, another gathering with myob ex-colleagues and as usual we took quite a number of photos. The dinner held at Bangsar Seafood Restaurant. The theme for that night is "Our Love In Him" and is purple night. Yes, my friend is christian and we were there to see the ceremony before dinner. Something different from usual chinese traditional wedding dinner. Can see most of us wore purple dress. It was nice. We had lots of funs and laughs on the night. We did self entertainment such as taking pictures all the way. At the end of the dinner the bride will throw the hand bouquet to the single girls...we all whole bunch of singles join for fun....but no luck...I didn't catch the bouquet. Means is not time for me get marry yet hehehee... Ok show u guys some photos taken.

Returning to Axis

Last Saturday I've did team teach at Axis with Azie. It's been long long time I didn't go to Axis. It's still the same there...members still same...and happy to see some old friends there again. OK talk about the TT. Overall it was ok. Same problem...voice projection, need to control. Arms movements nont sharp enough...slow mo need to improve. The rest, cueing ok, physicall execution clear. One thing I want to say, not really good to do class at Axis in the afternoon! super hot there...sun shine in directly from the window glass. So towards the end I was fatique. Got commented by member saying I've improved a lot...now with more confident. Good encouragement but I still need to work harder to improve what I need to. Will do more TT coming days...

Stress Stress Stress!!

Why so many things that can't work smoothly as you expecting?? It is true that when you have least expectation then things will be better isn't it? I'm so tired with all the processes I need to go thru...frustrating to know the results...frust to make the works done! Can I just give up everything? Can I just not to think about it? I need a break! I need to have something boost me up!! sigh...

At work, stressed! Am alone doing the project and time line soon. Other parties pushing me. And yet am all alone doing all the things. Worst now is just got to know the only person can help on hardware setup already left the company! damn...means I have to fix my problem by my own...problem I have no hands on or much knowledge! I need time to figure out but I don't have time....rush rush rush.... I'm always have to gone thru this...all alone to do a thing which no one can refer to. All learn it by myself :( But from past experiences I managed to over come it so this time I believe can also perhaps...*pray pray* Come one come on I can do it! I can do it! Concentrate!! *ps: I need assistant!!! But hard to hire ppl nowadays especially the requirements I want! :((

At gym, damn, stress also! It's been a year and still not yet clear BJam. Whenever I have passions to do it and work it hard however sure something happened let me down. No confident at all to continue it. I'm so tired n frustrated do it all the while! I wanted to settle it or just forget it. May be I'm still not ready to face my own fear :(

Personal, try to relax myself. Not to expect much. No worries. Be happy of what am I doing without regret. Problem is when fall for something I'll need to get it right...but I just don't want rush for it. Be patient...be cool. Keep telling myself no worories. Hopefully in the end will get what I wish for in better way....

At biz, it always bothering in my mind. I need time in this but I really got no time. I need more inspiration. I need concentration as well...I must do it in order to be better. Now market so competitive and I need something special...inspiration, inspiration!! skills, skills, skills!! I need all these....sigh....sigh....

What else? such a mess in my life...no planning in my life. What will I be after few more years? Scare to think about it. Damn...

Lessons In Life

By Regina Brett The Plain Dealer, Cleveland, Ohio

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living, or get busy dying.
17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today.
18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.
38. Read the Psalms. They cover every human emotion.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
42. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
43. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
44. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
45. The best is yet to come.
46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
48. If you don't ask, you don't get.
49. Yield.
50. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

Double Wave

Tonight gonna do 2 wave classes. Same as last time replacing earlier sessions. So total 4 sessions wave for tonight. yiks...hope I'm manage to do it. It's been a while not doing wave scare I'm not conditioned with it. *pray hard* hehe. But today am expected to do the replacement. It's my sense...sometimes I'll get right sense :p Well well, lately willing to do replacement...do more class earn more mar kekeke. Wish me luck and hope will not get butt pain :p

The party gang ask me join mambo jumbo tonite...no way...will be tired and tomorrow morning need to wake up at 5am. I am becoming a driver for my friends by sending them to airport :D All together 7 of us in one Avanza...with luggages. Hope can fit in la. Then will have breakfast before I say bye bye to them and then only go to work.

Mistake Day

Yesterday was a kelam kabut day for me. Plan always changed. Planned to go Curve for BJam but later Jon ask for movie, special show by MyFM. Free movie passes for "Death Note". So decided to go for movie with Jon, Purdey and Jon's combat class member. However about 5pm Yi Li called up for Cardio Wave class replacement at Hartamas at 7pm. Agreed to replace since still got time for movie even it's rushing and will skip dinner. Who knows Yi Li, the blur blur sotong, at first said the class suppose starts at 6:30pm not 7pm. Then asked me to do only 7pm 1 session. I was like...ok better than nothing. About 7pm another instructor approach me saying that's her permanent slot. Opppsss...then it's a big mistake by Yi Li...well I'll just leave and informed Yi Li. She was so sorry and keep apologize to me. I'm ok since it happened and still got time for me to movie. But one thing I don't like is have to stuck in the traffic jam at Hartamas itself. Wonder why last night so super jam. Usually it won't happen. I've wasted time and hassles to go over Hartamas for nothing...sigh...but I didn't really pissed off (wonder??) hehehe. May be I know I still manage to reach early and lucky I ate something before off work. What if I'm hungry and stuck in the jam I'll definitely pissed :p...

Movie was good. It's converted from Japanese manga story. The feel of watching it also similar to the feel watching anime which I like to watch :p. Quite a nice show. Especially the inspector character hehe. After show went home although got friends ask me join for drinks. Lucky me not joining because they all went karaoke after drinks till 4am. phewww if not I'll like zombie today kekeke. I need more rest lately :D too much events :p

Tired...

hehe I always complain tired one...for my friends who knows me already used to it :p Just a little bit update what I did past few days.

Last Friday, went to SPK team teach with Tony. I did Contemporary block. Overall ok but also mistakes on some chory. But Tony said if I'm able to get on track after missed should be not a problem. And I did so. Cueing ok but I need to practice voice projection more. Need to control my voice...coming Friday will try team teach with him again and this time Latin block. aiks...never teach this block before donno how leh...its harder on coaching. Gotta practice these few days. :p. After class joined friends at Telawi Street Bistro, Bangsar. First we sat downstairs near entrance. Had a cup of white wine and 2 spanking board shooter. eh this shooter is special, got many flavours for you to choose. I had Strawberry & Chocolate...there are other choices such as coffee, lychee, mango & many more which I can't remember. According to the waitress the drink mix with vodka...might try to mix our own one day hehehe. Then we went upstairs for some dancing. At first no one dance at the dance floor and our group started first. later on many ppl dancing...I just danced a while and left with Fanny first. Too tired la...need sleep :p

Last Saturday, try to sleep as later as I can :D then went to Curve joining BJam initially by Tracy but she was sick then replaced by Kylie. Lucky that she did new BJam 39 2nd block - Dance4Life. wow first time doing this block and it's cool! I like it. Especially with the songs Sexy Back and SOS. The moves cool as well. Kylie performed very well. Hope can dance like her hehe. So looking forward for workshop next Saturday and learn up the new BJam...wuhoooo. After BJam I shopped alone at Curve for dinner dress. Then meet up Raymond, Clement & Larry for dinner at Mid Valley. Thought of watching movie but end up everyone go home separately. I was tired after hanging out whole day also. Better leave early to rest at home. But I don't sleep early hehe...watched movies and chatted on phone with a friend :p Quite a fruitful day for me :)

Last Sunday, crazy day for me hehe. Joined 3 classes back to back started with BCombat then BStep and lastly BJam. I've not doing workout much past 2 weeks, so try to do as much as I can to build up my stamina again. I'm still alive after 3 classes but my legs painful and got bliss already hehe. After classes still shop for groceries for an hour. Legs gonna patah liao hehe. Gone home but didn't rest. Prepare food for dinner and next day meals. Then watch movies till 2ish am. Very very tired day I had....

Monday, too stoned at work. Not enough sleep. Took half day off in the afternoon meeting someone ;). Then went home cook dinner, wash clothes, watched movies and slept early at 11pm. But donno why next day still feel sleepy :p...I find that the more I sleep the more I feel tired hohoho

Halloween Night @ Laundry Bar

I'll never celebrate Halloween but this year special. Had a great night with my friends (however too big group till I have no more mood to entertain). However still happy see some old friends and know some new friends. Actually it was special night at Laundry which whoever dress up and eligible to win a bottle of liquor. That night all staffs there also dressed up and best dress will get a voucher for dining. It was so special night as every staffs dressed up and some customers as well. Something different to see hehe. But we all no dress up la. Didn't bother about it. Here some pictures taken that night....


2 days later go to Laundry again as usual. because its Thursday and we just ask girls :) quite lots of pics taken since I go to Laundry...or I can say since know Kai Reen...cos she always take her camera with her...hehehe

Beard Papa's

I wanted to blog this for long. Just wanna introduce Beard Papa's Cream Puff. I know some of you tried it before. Why I wanted to talk about it? If not mistaken I tried this puff when I visited Hong Kong 2 years back. I never notice this. Was my sister wanted to buy the puff which located inside one of the MRT station. Noticed that lots of ppl buying it. Once I've tasted one I wish to have another one. The cream is cold and the whole puff is meticulous! I'm quite like cream puff but hardly find nice one. But I like this. Even after came back Malaysia am still can remember it. Until one day I shop at Mid Valley saw this puff shop! Bought some to try...but not as good as what I tried before. However it is still nice. Now they have another shop in One Utama. You try it and let me know your comment :) But I still wish to try the one back in HK. :p

Confess

I need a confess here. :( Lately I don't go gym as often as I used to. Reasons? Too tired, lack of sleep and also my old injury came back, right leg shin pain again. :( Too much time spend on drinking....yeah I know...after you all read my previous entries I've been to Laundry almost every night. However getting bored going there...reason I go there because knowing lots of friends there...get good service lor...bar tenders nice to me also. Am too regulars until other ppl that I donno also recognize me :p...and it is the first place I can ever sit alone at bar without terrified... Have to confess that lately I've ate a lot and drink a lot till I gain weight :( I need to cut down...need to rest more. I need to concentrate on my work and gym side. Still got objectives to aim for...don wan waste any extra times.

I have too many outstanding stuffs yet to settle...indirectly cause some stress on myself...when I got stress will tend to eat lots :( What am I suppose to do! I need more time! more rest! Can I? Can I? *dunnooooo* :((

Update - 2nd Week

6 Nov (Mon) - TT with Kok Hoe at Subang after a week break not workout and practice BJam. Same thing I taught...Contemporary Block from Release 38. Before I teach already felt tired...I was started ok but half way I felt really fatique and not feeling well. However gotta move on to finish up. So it affected my cueing...when tired u can't think of a word out from your mouth. I was like keep catching breathe and hardly to say some words :( So far I've did few TT at TF same block but were ok. never got such problem. I think the studio at subang too stuffy, I have problem in breathing when it's hot. May be the reason hot will cause you fatique faster....rite? and also perhaps I didn't rest well... :( performance and stamina dropped....sigh
Meet up friend after that for Karaoke (my friend's friend unhappy) although am tired actually...however he was late again...so just went in Laundry for a cup of stout while waiting his arrival...my friends sang lots of songs but not me...they very well in singing...pai seh me not really good in singing hehehe. I was enjoying listening to them :p. Slept 4ish morning...so basically next day I'm a zombie by just slept 3+ hours. *grin*

7 Nov (Tues) - This time is my own gal friend unhappy...or should say something happened. So we just go out drink at Laundry. Only 3 gals which it suppose to be. However my friend met her friends there and the guy so thick face to join us even I've told them we just wan to have gals chat. duh...no choice. But I've already no mood with someone interrupt in. So I'll just sit quietly there, mingle around with other ppls, play games with bar tenders. Not a fun night...didn't manage to talk but nothing to talk also with my friends...Hang out quite late...am really tired.

8 Nov (Wed) - Friends ask to go Velvet Mambo Jumbo...no la...I want rest. Don't really like to go to KL clubbing. No Wave class...went home after work. Then started to clean up my room. Rearranging some furnitures. Had my dinner and then watch series....a bit tired from cleaning up but satisfied with a cleaner room. Managed to catch up the series half way thru...happy :D. Had a chat on phone with a friend make my night better *wink*. Consider slept earlier but still late hehehe.

9 Nov (Thurs) - Joined Kylie Gate's BJam at Uptown. No plan to join the class at first but knowing many jammers going so I think I must go lor...since I havent try once for new release yet. But she just did Bollywood and Latin block only. The rest are old esp 35 second block which long long time no do it. It was my training release...miss it! Kylie is superb! love her love to see her dance, love to see how to motivate, love how she coach. really a great master trainer. Seen her many times from video but not realy person. Last nite was my second time see her in person...she is really wonderful & friendly lady...so pro...hope can learn from her *grin* Went to Laundry after class. Suppose Fann n me n also my ex colleague only. But Fann ffk. so just me n my ex colleague. had 2 cups stout n some talks. Left early. No fun without the group :p By the way Laundry was happening last nite cos of live band. it always be that. Crowded. But musics not nice la...

10 Nov (Fri) - Tonite will have TT with Tony at SPK. Hopefully tonite no screw up and improve from what I suppose to. My TT tomolo with Azyei at Axis cancelled cos Azyei unable to do the class :(....gotta look for someone else to TT..sob sob. Plan later...donno yet...may be same old place hehehe. Weekend also not plan yet...might need to go back hometown....n shopping with gal friends on sunday for dinner dress :D

Update - 1st week

Aloooooo to all my readers, miss my entries?? It's been some time I didn't update my blog, sowie :p Recently too tired and busy and not really got mood to write. In fact, nothing much special lately apart knowing more friends :D. For those who writes blog, don't you encounter a period of time you don't really want to write? Forgive me that sometimes I need some break from writing...aiyah if I write all my stuffs which basically same you guys will feel bored as well right? I think I need some perks... *wink wink*

Ok let's update a bit about my last 2 weeks... (think it will be a long entry! kakakkaa) I'll try to shorten it la k ;)

30 Oct (Mon) - Had a dinner date with a new friend at Curve. He was late due to the work. So just walk around while waiting him arrive. Without my intention, we just had dinner at Laundry which serves food from Italianise. Had a great time chilling out together but can't be long due to he has to work. Bump into some friends then continue joining for drink after my date went off.

31 Oct (Tues) - It was Halloween night, so we all went to Laundry for the dress up night. But I don't dress up *grin* although bar tenders ask me dress up. It was cool night. Can see all the staffs there dress up. Taken some photos with some of them but still waiting for it. Will post once got it. I was not in good mood bcos too many group of friends and I don't like social with them esp not too close. What I did just walk around and talk to new friends. I was like mingle around hehehe. What to do...know too many regular faces there :p cos me also one of the regulars.

1 Nov (Wed) - Too tired after 2 days drinking consecutively...I was unfit to teach Cardio Wave class. And after quite some time no teach is a bit hard to catch up. Luckily the members still ok with it. It's quite hard to condition myself to wave if I only teach once a week alternately. Unless I teach more often then I'll be fine with Wave. Took a good rest after class.

2 Nov (Thurs) - Had dinner and drink at Laundry. Italiannies introduces a new platter menu which inclusive 3 kind of dishes @ RM29.90++. The food ok la...not too bad. I like their stuff mushroom and calamari caesar salad. Thursday as usual we go to Laundry to have girl's nite. Why Thursday? bcos they have live band. However sometimes the band not nice. I just enjoy a nite chilling out with a group of friends esp just girls.

3 Nov (Fri) - Hen's night for Kai Reen. She is getting married 2 weeks later. So we all had a ji muis nite with her. We played True or Dare...wonder why all questions related to x rated one.. hmmm...but i've revealed too much info to them...bad bad...didn't drink much that nite but we laughed a lot. Thanks to Rebecca...fun gal.

4 Nov (Sat) - Too many nites late sleep, taken this opportunity slept a bit later. Thought of joining BJam 245pm @ Curve but feel lazy...since Raymond said not going also then thought of stay at home online. Who knows this Raymond suka change mind said going to curve. Then I'll just dress up and meet him after the class cos I don't plan to workout. I shop a while at bazaar while waiting Ray finished. After a while he called me n told me FF Curve got someone passed away. So we go check to FF there to check out. but not allow to go in. Everyone was asking to leave gym. Too many stories about this incident...donno which to listen...Went kopitiam with Ray, Leo & Colin. Had some chat which I've long time no kepoh with them ler... Then I join Alfred at Friday's for drink a while...After that, shop at Curve for dinner dress. Went in Tribeca and managed to buy 2 dresses. I like their dresses...however a bit pricy. sob sob... I still need to shop again with my girl friends cos haven't get the right color dress for the dinner :D Left Curve then I went to do some bank stuffs and later meet up Fann n Kai Reen for mamak. So happy we can yum char near by our house apart meet up at Laundry. We will have more of this once Kai Reen moved to Sri Petaling :) yay yay!

5 Nov (Sun) - Super tired and slept till 1pm. Lazy workout which sunday suppose go to IOI joining combat. I just stayed at home watch CSI and waiting the rest finished workout and call me out for makan...Went to Puchong Bandar Sri Puteri had lunch. Too bad the shop which I suppose wanna bring them to not open. Went to another restaurant call Kampong Ah Soh... food not bad...esp selling dumpling...yum yum...I love dumpling very much. donno is it bcos I born in this day :p After lunch went IOI Jusco for some groceries shopping. It was rain heavily and I got wet. :( rest the rest of the night....lazying on the couch...watch series....what a nice relaxing day :p I should do this more often kekeke.

My Celebrity Look-alikes

Got this from Stephannie & Fanny blog...quite fun...you can try it ;) I've tried few photos result almost same...limited :p

Nice Food

A day before Deepavali (20 Oct) I took day off. Reason...hehe had a late night party on Thursday night and I need more sleep and wish to have longer holiday for coming raya week. On that day I had lunch with my ex colleagues from MYOB. We went to a restaurant which is Calyn's uncle's shop near Citibank Puchong. The place nice...and as well as the food delicious. Let me show you...

1. Salad with fish or chicken? tak tau...but I tasted it a bit and it's nice.
2. Seafood Spaghetti. This is what I had. Very delicious and not even RM20 with 3 muscels, 5 big prawns, crab meat stick, salmons & squids with brown sauce. I like it especially brown sauce.
3. Cheese Ham with chicken...something like that. Heard is nice although I didn't try.
4. errr...I donno this one call what name....something roast chicken one...almost heard that is delicious.
5. Stewed beef wish mashed potatoes. Tasted it and nice! It is actually a set lunch come with mushroom soup and jasmine tea. price at RM10 only.
6. Kung Pou Rice. Taste good also. Also from one of the set lunch same thing at RM10.
7. The front look of the shop. If you are interested look for this shop calls f1.
8. Inside decorations full with F1 pictures...I think the owner likes F1 hehehe...

Nice Dance Clips

Body Jam Demo
GFX Celebration

Parties

Here some pictures taken from past weeks parties with all girl friends...some just got to know them. But happy to know them and enjoyed the time partying with them. We mostly have girl's night out. However still got guys joining together once a while.

On a Saturday nigth 2 weeks ago....


On Thursday night last week....


On Friday night last week @ 101 East...opposite KL Plaza...first time been there and it's a nice environment and good place to chill out with bunch of friends...comfortable place also...

Old Pic

Just browse thru my photo albums to upload to share and found this pic. Wanna share it very long time ago but due to some reason I didn't do that. But now think of sharing it and it doesn't matter to me now for anyone of you know it....I went to Manila January this year for a trip and visited few FF centers there...good experience and able to know most of the BJam instructors there and manage to catch their Nike Rockstart Hip Hop audition. It was great night and chance to see all of them dance superb....the audition went on few hours....they really can dance very well.

Some of Bjammers and HT after the audition....everyone are friendly and good dancers...

Long Holiday Plan

Have a roughly plan for coming raya long holiday. Am not going anywhere except one place I plan to go on purpose. You will know later follow the plan for the days....

Thursday
yeah gotta work of course. But is the day I'm looking forward to. At work...what should I need to do is Software Design Specifications (which outstanding accordidng to my schedule!) sei mou....still have no idea how to write up. And this week suppose to start create new tables and edit exiting tables cater for the functionalities for the project. I would have facing a big trouble soon where by my project plan I forgot include the holidays we have here! lagi sei mou! have to squeeze the time to accomplish the project that I hope to! wish me luck nia...

yeh yeh...at night is the night waiting for...going to Laundry again kekekeke. Will be a happening night. Going with girl friends only 4 of us. But anyone of you feel free can join. Think will be there earlier to get bar seats as usual. Plan to have crazy and wild night lor...in fact I've apply leave on Friday hohoho. Hope my boss approves....*pray hard* If on leave on Friday I can party later on Thursday kakaka. Meanwhile I need more rest.

Friday
If on leave la...then will sleep as much as I can first. Then plan to script for BJam. Got team teach at night at SPK 8:45pm. Then another team teach at Taipan 12:30pm on Saturday. Need to scrip and practice practice practice! I hope I got improvement this time. Still no plan yet at night....but think will just rest.

Saturday
TT at Taipan lor....then plan to go for a massage...yay I love massage hehehe. Basically no plan yet leh. At night may be go Laundry again hiak hiak hiak.

The rest of the days depends on gym schedule and most probably will stay at home. I need to! need to do lots of more crystals accessories. one is for my friend stall to sell and the other is need to design a customise bridal sets which I've seen a friend of my ex-colleague on last Saturday. Quite a total different request and I'll try my best to make it what the requirements are. Because of this...plan to go Singapore to get materials and others for more varieties to make more different accessories. May be go on Monday or Sunday for 1 or 2 days trip. Still not confirm yet but I do really wish to go there.

Other reasons I need to stay at home, do research on crystals accessories...design...do it. Format my house desktop and setup the network if possible. Need to pain my room and clean up thoroughly! I hope I can finish all the tasks I need to do but I doubt that! Too tired and limited time!! ish ish ish.

Still havent count on other ad hoc plans might happen...kekeke who knows leh....will see :p

I'm Survived!

A crazy night for me...I just did 2 Cardio Wave classes equivalent 4 sessions each 20 mins. It was a last minute replacement for earlier class and then later is my own class. First time doing Wave back to back....butt really very tight and legs pain leh...got a bit cramp on legs hehe. However after 2 wave classes I still join BStep as usual. hohohoho still survived neh. However can't perform very well in BStep class anymore :p. Remember the last session of my wave class got members wanna take challenge and I decided to have longer and squad thing for them for few repetitioins! And I'm all out man...sweat no body business. haha. But it was good...different sessions different members and different fun! I like it :p

HornyScope ;)

GEMINI
May 22 - June 21
Ruling Planet: MERCURY
The swiftest God in the skies, who also happens to be in charge of ultra-extreme raunchy talk
Talking about sex is Gemini's favourite hobby and doing it comes a close second. Gemini's love flirting and lap up attention from the opposite sex, but sometimes that's all they're looking for. They need a lot of variety when it comes to sex - dirty weekends away, a quickie in a shop doorway, serious groping under the table at a fancy restaurant. A lot of Gemini's are bisexual too and can often be drawn to those of the same sex.

FAVE POSITION
As long as it's different every time, they're not fussy, but if they must choose, it's that naughty number right after 68, since they can come up for air if they need to.

BEST SEX TOY
Any illustrated book about kinky sex, so Gemini can pick up some wild, new ideas

GEMINI MALE IN BED
He likes to give AND receive and can be quite inventive. He's a lights on, in front of the mirror kinda guy and if you make a few subtle noises and talk a wee bit dirty, he'll be very happy.

GEMINI FEMALE IN BED
She is more interested in IQ than private parts. If she can't respect the intellect, then satisfaction is not possible for her. She may sleep around forever and never find her true love and she is not the most faithful of the signs. She likes sex on the run, in an airplane toilet, in the storeroom at work, in the backseat of a car.

THE BEST WAY TO TURN ON GEMINI
Focus on the shoulders, arms and legs of a Gemini and you're headed for the good books. They love a good massage and their hands are so sensitive that even having their fingernails played with sends shivers up their spine! Kiss up and down each of your Gemini's arms, sneak in a few licks, nips and nibbles. If you get one or two yelps, then you know you're doing something right. Then, move onto the fingers, slowly kiss, lick, nip and nibble each fingertip, then pull out the killer move - suck on each finger, slowly, as if it's a lollipop. I'll almost offer a money back guarantee on this one working!

Dance Style

Salsa Salsa is a fun and flirtatious Latin American dance, fuelled by Afro-Caribbean rhythms and all-night partying. The dance fuses Cuban, Puerto Rican and Columbian styles into simple and lively movements. Salsa dancers fill venues all over the UK, revelling in this hot Latin dance.

Mambo When Lou Bega rereleased 'Mambo Number Five', dancefloors in the UK were once again alive with Mambo madness. A forerunner of Salsa, Mambo is defined by 1950s Cuban Jazz and accompanied by fast and fun moves. The dance makes a memorable appearance in the hit film 'Dirty Dancing' starring Patrick Swayze.

Merengue The Merengue is the Caribbean Dominican Republic's party dance. Many of the movements are like those of Salsa, but as the Merengue's tempo is slower, the dance is easier to pick up.

Samba The Samba leapt from the street of Rio, Brazil. However, the Samba danced in the International competition style Latin American is very different to the original Bralizian party dance.

Rumba The Rumba provides the setting for sensual and passionate duel between man and woman on the dancefloor. With its pulsating and rumbling rhythms, the Rumba is the slow dance of the Latin world and often referred to as the 'Queen' of all Latin dances. The Rumba is one of the five dances used in International competition style Latin American.

Cha Cha The Cha Cha is another fun and versatile Latin dance and ranks amongst the five dances competed at international level. The dance draws its name from the rhythm of the feet on the dancefloor - 'cha cha cha' - and today's version resembles the original Cuban Cha Cha.

Argentine Tango Argentine Tango was born in Buenos Aires and is a raw and authentic dance which, like many Latin dances, explores and tests the relationship between man and woman. In Tango the man and woman are equal and with the movements weaving contact and separation, the dance suggests that either partner may be seduced. In Europe, we have translated the original Argentine Tango into the Ballroom Tango.

Tango Ballroom The Ballroom Tango is one of the five dances belonging to the International Ballroom Competitions. Many see it as the austere European relative of the raw and compelling Tango Argentino.

Paso Double During the Paso Double, the dancefloor becomes a Spanish bullfighting arena; the man is the matador; and the woman - the flowing provocative cape that entices the bull. This dance, with its constant echoing of the Spanish Flamenco, is one of the five International Latin competition dances. Click here to view a short film clip of the Pasa Double in action!

Waltz The world reknown Waltz captures romance and marks special occasions for dancers everywhere. Originally an 18th century Austrian folk-dance, the Waltz is one of the five dances of International Ballroom competitions. The dance is called the 'slow' or 'English' Waltz in countries where the Viennese Waltz is known as the Waltz. Click here to view a short film clip of the Waltz in action!

Viennese Waltz The Viennese Waltz harks back to days when the Viennese aristocracy danced to the music of Strauss and other classical composers. Today the Viennese Waltz is still danced socially, but the 'slow' or 'English' Waltz is more standard. Elegant and classic, the Viennese Waltz is one of the International Ballroom competition dances.

Foxtrot The Foxtrot is a slow and graceful dance rooted in the Tin Pan Ally of the 1920s. The dance's elegant and beautiful movements make the Foxtrot a challenging dance for ballroom dancers to master. The Foxtrot features in the five International Ballroom competition dances.

Quickstep The first dancers to take the Foxtrot to a faster tempo introduced the Quickstep. There are echoes of Charleston in the Quickstep with the dance's nimble hops and kicks, making it a lively and energetic expedition to the dancefloor. The Quickstep is one of the five international ballroom competition dances.Click here to view a short film clip of the Quickstep in action!

Freestyle/Disco Freestyle/disco is the trendiest and most popular form of dance in the UK today. In involves runs, spins, kicks and leaps as well as many other diverse steps and movements with lots of different arm and hand actions. The music can be fast and 'beaty' or slow and sensuous, allowing dancers of all ages to use freedom of expression to enhance their style.

Streetdance Have you ever seen the hottest pop band's music video or performance on Top of the Pops? Then you will already know what Streetdance looks like. Streetdance takes any form of popular music - from pop to hip hop - and choreographs routines to the beats. We have seen that, only too often, the most successful pop acts have made it big by combining Streetdance routines with their tunes and lyrics.

Theater Craft This most exciting dance form encompasses the wide spectrum of productions that are Musical Theatre. Shows like Grease, My Fair Lady, Bombay Dreams, The Lion King etc all diverse styles but all embraced by the Theatre Craft Title. A dance form for theatrical performance, preparing the body physically through exercise and stimulating artistic ability through dance movement, improvisation and interpretation of music. The use of hand props, make up and much more - it provides all the 'must have' qualities for today's amataeur and professional dancer.

Musical Theatre So you wanna be a star? Or maybe you just want to have the moves - and the fun - of the stars. So start with the IDTA's Musical Theatre Syllabus! A fusion of all modern music and dance styles, Musical Theatre takes you to inspirational heights. The spotlight's on you!

Modern Jazz Modern Jazz is fun. You will learn to develop many different movements reaching to a broad choice of varying rhythms and musical styles. Classes are structured to begin to prepare the physical strength and flexibility required to demonstrate emotion through interpretation of any musical genre, one minute you may be dancing to the rhythm of a drum, the next to a funky jazz style. You may explore contrast between expansion and relaxation or learn to isolate in a slick stylish mood, whatever the atmosphere of the class, it will be a wonderful opportunity to react and interact with other members of the class and really dance to express your feelings.

Jive When Elvis Presley came on at that last wedding reception party you went to, the guests probably took to the dance floor with the Jive. However, there are many different styles of Jive that have adjusted to the various music phases throughout the decades. The 1920s Lindy Hop, 1930s Jitterbug and Boogie Woogie, 1940s Swing, 1950s and 1960s Rock 'n' Roll and French Jive are all styles of Jive. The dance is one of the International Latin American competition dances. Click here to view a short film clip of the Jive in action!

Tap Tap is rhythm - rhythm is tap. Its origins are many and varied. Americans claim its origin dates from the African Jazz age. The Irish stake their claim to the Jigs and Step Dancing. The English relate back to northern Clog Dancers but whichever one chooses to believe, Tap is as popular today as it was in the heyday of the great Fred Astaire and Gene Kelly musicals. Evergreen shows, 42nd Street and Crazy For You, and the more reecnt Stomp and Tap Dogs highlight the great diversities of style and music in tapping. The IDTA has recently launched its new Tap Grade Examinations. Thousands of examinations and medal tests are held each year for childrens, students and professionals and a wide range of tests are available for adults of all ages. A gentle, rhythmical and enjoyable way to keep fit!

Ballet Ballet for pleasure, Ballet for the more serious-minded. This classical style of expressive movement has something to offer for everyone. Ballet dates back to the 17th century. The conventional steps, grace and fluidity of movement are still found in Ballet today. Choreographers have been influenced by composers through the ages. Ballet has a technique which is the foundation of all dance.

source from http://www.idta.co.uk

2 Jam

Yesterday I had a shadow for BJam at Curve. It was fun class and happening members with the hiao instructor :p Enjoyed myself shadowing the instructor. He is nice and ask me team teach(TT) with him next week! Yes I will do it. I need more TT in order to overcome my problems and improve the skills. Else I donno how to improve. After shadow I do another BJam class and this time TT at hartamas and I did 2nd block (without mic!). It was a challenge class whereby all members are new to BJam (as it was just replacement class). However I feel comfortable to them...not as stress as facing regular members. I was doing fine at the beginning stage...however once I've lost count then all kelam kabut already. Usually I'm confident with the chory but donno what's wrong with last nite. After lost count I've forgotten what I should do and calm myself. sigh... After class got comments from the instructor...a lot...but all constructive and those really my weaknesses. I need to improve them one by one. Hopefully next TT will be better.

The comments given are:
1. Chory not on the dot. Unable to know where should I start the move.
2. Pre-que on the spot. Need to bring it forward.
3. My words too long. Only need precise and short word.
4. Not much feeling que.
5. Que words too harsh...need more gentle.
6. No transition. Flat class. No build up to excitement.
7. I'm too serious look. Need more smile. Enjoy the class.

P/S: I was 'pancit' after 2 classes. In fact a night before slept less than 4 hours and I'm very gang ho to do 2 classes and then go for drinks and sleep @ 3am :p ~~ Consequences--> very tired and sleepy! Tonight will try to rest if possible...however still go workout hehe.

Photo

Just got the photos from beloved sister, Stephannie :p I love them so much cos everyone looks pretty hehehe. Taken some pics while drinking at Laundry last Saturday. Steph, my bosom sister where we've been long time no see due to both of us so busy :( But at last she joined us last saturday with her bf. So happy to see her. happy to have a pic with close friend and close sis. :D

Dear sis,
I wish we really have a day to catch up
each other ;) Don't work so hard till you've got lack of sleep ok. Hope to see
you pretty pretty everyday. *Hugssss*

Just knew also taken some group pic for all gals...(didn't remember at all :p)...waiting for it!

Cleaning

Last night after work decided not to go anywhere and just head home. Had early dinner then I did some laundry and tidy up my wardrobe. Then decided to do some cleaning of my room. It's been long time I wanna clean up but no time and tired. hehe. Basically I just rearrange some furnitures, clean the floor and change new bedsheet and quilt cover set. But yet to have detail clean up because it's limited time and not feeling well though... But better than nothing. At least I feel more comfortable with my room now with new soft and smooth quilt set hohoho. Had a good night sleep last night but still not enough :p

All Alone

Lately I feel very stress at work. It's all because what am I doing all by myself. No one can help! And it's not easy to pick up the huge system with limited guides :( Some more lately a lot of pushy from different party need a date to be done for certain things. And it's not only one but few! I only got 1 brain and 2 hands how am I can done all these? Besides I need to become project manager to manage the schedule myself! Worst is my boss always not around or not free for me...hard to discuss with him and a lot of things I need to deal it myself. Especially deal with UK company and the clients. Stress! Stress! Stress! I really have no idea where should I start from to finish all these? Pick up ppl's code is not easy...not say maintaining it. sigh...and it's not proper organize....just found out I have problem in setting up the system and also build the project! What a mess!! *crying*

Tomorrow got a conference call with UK and Singapore ppl....all by myself...boss not free... aiyoh lagi stress! gotta talk about all the works for the client...gonna die :( *wish me luck*

KO

I'm KO by the bad haze and most probably exhausted past few days. Been sleeping late around 3am and wake up 7ish in the morning :p But I had fun hanging out with friends! Little sacrifice not a matter hehe. Last Friday had a small gathering for lantern fest at Larry's place...had a small pot luck then we played mahjong till 2ish. I got the luck and won all their money! hiak. All the while I lost to them one neh...hohoho. Next day become ji mui so gotta get up 7am. aikss... so the sleepy...after the event straight go home sleep from 11ish am till 2pm. Was a little bit over slept. Got Wave class at 3pm @ hartamas. lucky be there on time. After TF went for massage... ouch! that's painful shiatsu massage...bruises all over my body now :p. I don't feel like going home for Saturday night although I feel tired. So just called up girl friends and they said go to Laundry again! kekeke ... I said ok!

Were at Laundry around 10ish pm...lucky the bar still got available places for us. The night was also girls night out and this time more girls. Total 8 girls I think...with some of their guy friends. Met my friend as well. I was drunk drunk drunk! all gals were crazy leh...drank so much. too many mixture of drinks. 3 stouts, 1 baileys, 1 semboka, 2 chemical, 1 shot (mixture of 2 types alcohol but no name), 1 lamborghini, 1 whisky (from my friend), 1 JD Coke (spilled half cup...lucky huh:p)...this time I really over limit...probably happy drinking with the girls so forget my limit :p puke twice ... ish ish...not a good feeling neh... lucky got a girl friend sending me home cos I cant drive that night. *smirk* I have no worries cos I know someone there will take care of me *wink* Although next day gotta hang over but I did enjoy the night and something happened that made me feel good :D

Sunday as usual shadow jam at taipan then combat then makan then drink....did a guilty thing... but don wanna mention here hehehe. That's my weekend!

Ji Mui Day

Last Saturday morning became ji mui to my ex-colleague's, Mavis wedding day. Quite a number of us cos most MYOB are gals. First of all, we all arrived about the same time and first thing is to have breakfast there. The breakfast delicious...Mavis really can cook! We all keep eating while waiting for the bride ready. Then we took some pic with the bride before the groom arrive. As usual, the wedding day for chinese is to play the groom before he got to meet the bride. Then the yum char thingy. I was busy taking pics for others...managed to get some group pics. I stayed until the bride ready to go out to groom's house. I'm so sleepy (slept late on Friday nite cos had a small lantern gathering at Larry's house n played mahjong till late :p). I need to catch some sleep before head to Hartamas for Wave class replacement. The rest decided follow the bride to groom's house...I've become ji mui quite number of times...quite fun though.

Here some pictures on the day....
The bride...Mavis & me


01 The cute little doggies rare by Mavis...both dressed up nicely. 02 The roasted pig usually needed for big day. 03 The bouquet of flower for the bride. 04 Nice snoopy toys sticked on wedding car.

Sick

Due to yesterday bad haze weather...finally I've got knocked down. I thought I was OK and strong till yesterday. I think also because I party on Saturday nite till late nite and next day woke up with sorethroat. Lack of water should be and the bad bad bad weather. sigh.... sick is a suffering thing!

This morning suppose to take MC but boss ask to have meeting...since got woke up and want to settle some stuff so came to office. But I'm getting sick and I need some sleep. So better off now. For my friends out there take care and drink more water. Fight with the haze k? Ciao...

Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow

Fanny, Chai, Shirlyn, Lyn

Yesterday

Suppose go for shadow at Curve FF but due to some misunderstanding then no more liao. So just join as member for BJam. My reason to Curve is because I wanna take shower and change there so later will meet up party friends later at Laundry...yeah same as last week Thursday always be there hehehe. Kind of like that place :p Watch out...might be there again next week kekeke. Reason? hmmm know more peeps lor. Everytime there sure got guys approach one. Last night knew someone working there as well. Cute but young guy....sigh...why all the guys I know sure younger one? especially those way too young :p Last nite got 3 gals 2 guys. Same 3 gals as last week. one of the guy was my ex ex colleague...great to party with u for first time...and I bet you will join us again anytime. The other smart and serious guy just knew from my gal friends...hmmm better and more fun than someonen else...gals...u know who am I talking about. So bad me huh? Not as packed as last week but still ok. Had 3 stouts (suppose 4 but a guy just know helped to finish it which I don't think I can finish :p...so nice of him), 2 shots - Chemical (4 nice colors 4 small cups with nice taste also) & Semboka Coffee Bean. Will like to try all sorts of shots if possible kekeke. Some sparkles towards the end of the night...but I'm not going to tell what is happening :p

Today

So sien whole day no internet at office. Feel very sleepy consequences from last night. kekeke. Slept only at 3am. What a boring Friday I've ever had...sob sob.

Plan to have a dinner with someone but didn't think about anyone...so just decide to go home la. Lucky my gang said got get together small party later tonite. better still! so called pot luck for last minute hehehe. Ok since nothing to do. I'll go home sleep a while first before join the party ler. very sleepy now. My gal friend ask to join her at Loft but no thanks....I'm too tired. One night a week clubbing cukup! kekekeke

Tomorrow

Early morning go for excolleague house as "Ji Mui". But just be there for the morning. Afternoon got Wave class replacement at Hartamas 3pm leh. Thought of go massage one .... see if got time after class will go for it :p No plan yet for night...might look for gal friend for yum char...any better plan??? hmmm....

Happy Mid Autumn Festival 中秋节快乐

What a wonderful day for me today! Can't access internet due to streamyx down for my office area...duhhhh but managed to get dial up once a while. kekeke

Wanna wish everyone since early morning "Happy Mid Autumn Festival!" Enjoy the family dinner or dating whatever you will and enjoy the mooncake on your table! I wish to have a good dinner with family or someone but don't think it will happen. Forget it! I'm ok with it and it's not any special day :D

Hiding?

A friend said that I'm good in hiding my worries..unhappiness. My answer was that's the way. If not you wanna show all your worries to everyone? I don't wish my friends or anyone besides me get moody by my problems. However sometimes I do show it and no good to make others unhappy also. I've been trying to practice not to hurt anyone besides me. I used to hurt a lot ppl around me especially my family. So now I try not to have much contact with them then will have lesser contradictions....donno since when I didn't go back my home town see my parents (if yes also didn't manage to see them as they were out often). Even staying with my sisters but I don't meet them often (I go out later than them and came home when they asleep). Even see them also didn't talk much. I just don't feel like talking at home. Like to stay alone...thank godness I still got friends...however sometimes I do need someone can talk to but unable to get...when I'm really really down and need one...

No worries...I'll be fine the next day! For who know me.

Nothing

Everyone been asking me are you ok? I will like to answer nothing...in fact sometimes I don't know how to tell and what I should tell?

Not in good mood these few days and decided to write something that in my thoughts since I'm resting at home tonight. The earliest day I've ever home since past 1 week. Same thing mentioned from my sis just now. sigh... Why I must make myself so tired so not free? However I admitted I'm enjoying my life but sometimes really too exhausted till feel like giving up esp when you are down and something happened not right....

After wrote and talked to friends I felt better...should not think too much then will be better? I've think too much I pressume. Do you find that whenever you are very very very tired and you tend to think something negatively....something make you feel very very very down?? Now I'm at this period. Whenever I'm very very very tired I will have depression...the consequences even made me felt no confident at all!

I'm not good in talking...not good in express myself...not good in interpret my meaning. I got this problem since young. I'm not used to talk to anyone since young. I'm the youngest in my family and way too young from my siblings. Parents too old also. They don't talk to me much. I used to keep everything to myself. I don't and donno how to tell what am I thinking and what I want. I'm lousy with that. Time goes by and adviced from friends, I've learnt to open myself to let go my feeling...try to tell what I wanna tell....it made me better and changing of myself. Is this call self evolution?

I think I can express much better thru internet. I can type more than I talk. Some of my friends might think that I'm dominant and can be a big sister. Know why? I'm the youngest and wish to have younger sister or brother. I'm too used to be youngest and pampered. Especially a small girl compare to all my siblings. I don't know is it call independant but since young all by myself. Help myself in the feelings, take care myself when everyone not at home. However I still think I was dependant when young.

Everyone will has a process of fell down and climb up again in their life. You may or may not learnt something from the lessons. I've learnt some but still not fully. Depends it is small or big matters. I can see myself better in certain aspect. I'm much better to control my temper. I've learnt not to persistent on something. Try to let go and look broader then you will feel better. I was a perfectionist (not sure now I'm still)...if yes may be certain aspect. When I can't do it then I'll not force myself. What I know now is try to be happy...enjoy the moments you have now. Enjoy as much as you can now. Don't regret when you look back.

While writing this entry and chatting with a girl friend and she inspires me one thing. Try not to expect too high then you won't get much disappointments. Not to compare who is good and who is not good. Try to see things from different aspects but not just one side. You only able to see surface but you don't know what is happening beneath? What you do should be yourself to answer it. It's your own decision and no one can decide for you. In the end no regret for whatever you've decided.

Keep telling ourself what is right what is wrong. What you want exactly? Will you regret? Don't compare. Further vision and broaden your heart....once a while you need some inspiration and something awaken you. Right?

Smart vs Dumb

Which one you will choose? I find that be a woman is not easy. Too smart ppl will say you too smart till you are dominant in any cases. You will have your own decision and you can take care yourself. Too dumb ppl will say you dumb blonde that donno anything and lost interest to be friend with you.

I think no matter you at which side still got ppl will comment you. I think the problem is not either you smart or dumb. The question is you must know when and where you should be neither smart nor dumb. That's the tricky part. Tricky where you have to know when should act smart when should act dumb.

A smart woman is should know play a trick. Too smart to be independant also not a good thing. However sometimes a woman need to be independant to take care herself when she has no one can dependant. However if there is someone there you should too dependant as well. Be smart when should dependant and when should independant. All these relate to whatever in your life.

What a hard job be a smart or dumb blonde?? Don't you agree?

Do You Love Yourself?

Have you ever ask this question to yourself? My answer is NO. I don't always love myself. Only sometimes will when my mood is good and I did something that I'm satisfied. Other than that most of the time I hate myself especially was something happened in my life few years ago. Before that I don't hate so much of myself...I'm satisfied with I have...What I've done I'm ok with it and I have much more confident...However ever since things happened and with age growing...I've lost myself once...I've worked hard to get myself back but not 100% before happily me...including my confident. Now on and off with and without confident. Can't do things better...until hate myself...

When I was young I don't feel such pain. I have confident doing everything and so far what I've gone thru were successful. Although I'm not too outstanding person but it's consider moderate and I'm satisfied with whatever I did. I am much more happier when young. Don't you think that you were happier when studying? I bet everyone does. I wish I've given few years back and start to do what I like with no regrets...sometimes it's too late until you realized it. What a life huh?

"Forget the past and start looking forward for future!"

Happy Birthday to Little Blacky

Happy Birthday to Raymond aka Little Blacky aka Ah Neh!!

Yesterday was his birthday and we went to Kepong to have crabs. The foods were nice especially the crabs. Been to this restaurant few years back. Nice and cheap food selling there. only RM18 per kg for crab leh...go try la. Total 10 of us and we ordered more than 10 dishes! We had 5 types crabs (Kam Heong, Cheese, Salt Egg Yolk, Hot Sour, Marmite) total 5kgs (I think) and some other dishes i.e. long life mee, tauhu, buddha over the wall, marmite pork rib, "juk tan", vege 2 types, donno what kind of pork...see the pics below hohoho...
While enjoying the delicious food...lots of laughter we had too...while some of them talking and laughing I'm enjoying to test my new camera...kakaka lots of candid pics taken with different effects...
2 by 2 pics....

Group Pic (don't feel like taking pic of myself but they asked me in)....I was a photographer last nite :D

We were so full but Gan suggested to get a cake...mousse cake they bought not bad...lucky just a small one...here the cake cutting moment...ah neh so drama....

Below some of the candid shots that I tried to use different mode from my camera...until my camera batt flat :p

After happily and satisfied our stomach then we went to SS2 kopitiam next to Murni...Penang Road to have drinks but main purpose is to kepoh lah...hahaha.

I was so sleepy after makan neh...We all 6 of us in one car from same place...It was fun to have all in one car kepoh kepoh hehe and lucky I don't need to drive...really sleepy leh...especiall so full meal...overall we had a great night with cheap and delicious meal and especially the laughters....

Last but not least...the present we gave to Raymond...a new Nike Shox Swift...his favourite color