7atenine

Friday was a long day for me. After work...taught a step class at Taipan...then rush home shower and change and make up for a girl's night out @ 7atenine. Fanny came and pick me up. Only 15 minutes to get ready!! It was rush! But I manage get ready by the then. hehe.

Lucky I don't need to drive. I was so tired and thought of don't want to go. But kind of in forcing situation have to go (yeah..fanny...u read it u know what I mean :p). Speak about drinking...it's been ages stopped for me. And also long time no drinks with fanny. It's my pleasure to go out again with her and her friends. It was all girls night. So not used to drink anymore. I just had one pint of Guiness Stout. That's it I can take. Not even half cup I already feel dizzy. But good to hang out and know new friends.

I hang out from 10pm till 3am :p oh no...lack of sleep again :D ish ish...here the pics taken with my iphone. not clear. hopefully get a better photos from new friend's camera.

The bar area

The drinking area with tables and sofas facing outside

lyn, shirlyn & fanny

we were sitting at bar while waiting fanny's philipino friends. See the guiness stouts..hehe that's what we usually have

Fanny & I...feel good hanging out with her again

with fanny's 2 philipino friends...leng lui boh?

Update:

New photo gotten from Nikki's camera.With Nikki and Karyn new friends knew on the night.

Bad News

Today received a bad news from Y Fitness. First of all, they called me to inform today class will be canceled. So I thought certain reason they cancel class just for today. But then later on received a sms from the club GXC. Saying from now onwards the classes will be canceled until further notice. The club will be ceased operation and don't know when will it be... may be closed down? Sigh... My payment since June till August still haven't get yet. Will I get it? Sad... I got total 2 classes there. Monday and Thursday. Wonder those members who just signed up as member how they feel. Sure feel geram. Feel sorry for the members and sad. Hopefully it gets better soon.

So from now onwards, I'm officially free at night from Monday till Thursday! hehehe. Gotta re-plan my gym schedule and free some time for my own stuffs and enjoy and rest more. I wish to meet up my friends who long time no see. So anyone of you read this date me yeah ;)!!

My Dinner

After work went to Pyramid to buy something needed then home to cook dinner. First time try this organic pan mee. I bought it last night when went to Bangsar Village. Got the pan mee from Country Farm and it has 4 colors. 20% off till end of September. The taste good and I like it. It is not expensive for organic food. Gonna go get few more packets since now got 20% off. hehe. Here the pic of my dinner that I cook :p just a simple one.
Just some shitaki mushroom, fishball, vege and egg with the pan mee.

My Feeling Now

Today is a very busy day. Rushing the document which not many ideas to write. Some more have to take care many things at the same time. I am frustrating now because gotta do something that I'm not clear and need to be done by tomorrow. Now is late already :( I'm very tired and wanna go home. My new job always made me stay up at work late. By the time I reached home already late and no time to rest as well. Once do this and that at home is already midnight. Accumulated I've lack of sleep and getting chan :(

Besides this, my heart also not feeling good. Something bothering me. Something bitter. I know it is not same and I might can't replace. I might not qualify. I didn't been thru it together. A lot of things I don't know. Feel that I'm out of the image. Not a good feel...

Still at work and I need to buy something first before I can go home. Again...late home. Always wish can home early to rest but always failed :(( No dinner yet...

Tit Tar

My left thumb still pain...after 1 week + :(...think need to see tit tar liao...any recommendation?
Now the thumb at least better...can hold things. can move. but when bend it feel very pain. My body healing ability so slow :( problem problem...body imbalance!! worry!!!!

Is it true?

Last night was teaching at Y Fitness. After class took a rest and do some training. A friend taught me how to do freeze, the basic one first la. with hands and head support to lift up legs. So I was practicing it near the sofas area. Then got this guy talked to me. He looks age 30+ and got a big fat tummy. Then he got to know I am instructor and he introduced himself as well. He is from Canada came to Malaysia to open a dance school branch. He gave me his name card. He is teaching salsa, cha cha, yoga etc...He is in the midst of opening the studio but yet to open due to rental problem. He said currently teaching by to student's house. I was shock such a big tummy guy can teach dancing...he shows me some moves...very hiao. Then he asked me since my english is good why not teach in canada? I was huh?! I am not qualified. He told me teaching in Canada better earnings. He told me he has 1 class in 1 club and monthly income is 4000. And he got 3 classes in 3 different clubs so total income per month will be 12000. Some more told me he was restaurant owners, fashion designer. He used to have a fashion show in KL and very successful. He helped 2 models to become catalogue models in Canada and became famous blah blah blah...

All these not sure can be trusted or not. I don't mind make a new friend. But true or not of what he told me....never bother to find out. But if is true...he said will teach me some moves when meet him again in the gym. Not bad also to have free lessons. hehe. Currently thinking to learn some dance esp salsa.

Hulk-ed The Pants?

Just read ahhou's blog about hulked his pants...I actually had the same experience but not at home!! I experienced 2 times pants ripped off while I'm teaching on stage!! First time was quite long time ago at Taipan. Teaching BodyJam and the track need to bend knees and when go lower heard a sound *piak*...the pants split apart. oh no....lucky tat time I got a jacket with me...quickly grab my jacket and tie around my waist to cover it. This time was still ok and the split not that obvious. The 2nd time the worst!! Happened recently...which I don't have time to blog about it till now. I was teaching at Pavilion and lucky the members are all ladies. I was doing the Contemporary Rock track. Also need to squat. My pants is cotton type it shouldn't be tear off so easily. Mana tau....half way in the super high mood I don't notice my pants pecah until members told me!! When I looked back...oh nooooo...can see my 8 moon 15 very clearly (that time wearing g-string)!! some more behind is a mirror and the studio open to outside. Everyone can from outside. Thank god that time I'm wearing long sleeve jacket...quickly take off and cover it. I was so panic and cant even take off the jacket properly and cover my butt. Lucky members came to help me. So pai seh!!! That time got guys outside the studio and once a while look into the studio...I so worried they saw it. HOpefully not.

The thing I worry when on stage - Pants split and Fell down. Both happened to me already! sigh

Lazy

Lately I'm lazy to go gym. I will be happy if the day no class. I wish to have more time for me to go home earlier to rest. Do my own stuffs. I find it very taxing when everyday having class and by the time home already 11ish pm. I have no more energy and time to do what I should do at home. There are many pending stuffs to be settled...piled up like a small mountain now. Only time I can do is weekend. But now weekend also got classes which not much left for me as well. My schedule now is only Tues and Wed no class. Happy to have these 2 days off. Will make the time to hang out with friends or home earlier. However I plan to go Hot yoga for these 2 days and if I'm continue lazy like this will become a pig. Dilemma. Meantime, I just need more more more rest. Very tired from everything. Not enough sleep everyday. Gym or no gym day still sleep late. Wonder why?? Gosh...I'm getting look tiring, mind and body tired. Need to manage my time properly so I can have more time for myself to rest! I am having neck pain...very pain. Exhausted weekend I had. Wish to have a long break....so lazy....

My Sunday

The day start with class @ taipan. Sunday class usually my favorite class because mostly regulars and I can do all the way non-stop and some will have responses. Can say more interesting class compare to other day at other club. After class straight went to 1U Neway Karaoke. Joining some high school friends for lunch and K. Basically I just had lunch and sing few songs but not on my own. I don't sing anymore because I don't know any new chinese song anymore. It's been some time no listen chinese songs. Feel so outdated and can't sing...sigh.

5 of us in karaoke. They sing alot. Kaki Karaoke. Not me :p

After Karaoke finished at 7ish pm then we head to dinner. Siu Siu Restaurant (which I remember I blog about it before) near Taman Seputeh. Had a great dinner and night out with old friends. Some of them knew since primary standard 1. We talked about old school time. Anything we can chat and laugh. Receive an wedding reserved time from one of the friend. Happy for him at last get married after 10 years dating. Will be going for their ROM ceremony in KL tower soon. But it is on weekday so gotta try to leave work earlier.

6 of us old high school friends. Once a while we will have gathering for such small group. There should be more joining but due to some not able to join for this time outing. Can imagine some of us knew 20+ years. Like the pic color coordinations. So colorful and nice.

Group pic including kopi's fiancee. All pretty smile faces.

These are the food we had. Super full. The food was quite ok. Price not sure is it cheap. Total bill 300+ 240.

marmite chicken

Char siew & siew yuk

2 styles of kailan

Salted Egg Fried Sotong

Asam & spicy fish

Chili Crab

Fried bun

Other food:
Last night went dinner with a friend just near by at kuchai lama. Not a special place but the food quite nice. I had tom yum meehoon and share with friend for tang hoon salad. Both from a thai stall in a chinese hawker center. Very nice and the ingredients lot. Like the tom yum soup. sour and spicy. Tom Yum RM7 and the salad RM6. Price reasonable with the food they put in.

Bowling

This afternoon lunch I went out with all colleagues and we had lunch at bowling alley in Sunway pyramid then we go for 1 game of bowling. One of the colleague organize this and we all plan for it since yesterday. Suppose they said want to have bowling then karaoke. But then only afternoon available so we call off few hours for this outing. Since today is special day. They said next week go for another game such as archery. Or bowling again? And for Karaoke session will be arranged after work. Not sure yet. Good to have such events so I can hang out more with colleagues. Earlier I feel left out and not so close to them..but then with more interactions at work and hang out lunch some time getting better. Usually I don't go out lunch. Once a while only go out with them. Good also to have more chances get to know each other. However I lazy go lunch la...waste time to drive out. hehe. But today had fun and since many years I don't play bowling already! Used to be very good but now ar...si la. haha. I brought my bowling ball but kept in my car. Didn't bring for the game. Just play for fun don bother to bring. However not used to the in house balls...thumb pain. But my average still there la...ok ok la. hehe. I got the highest scores leh. Don't play play. :)

Simple Words But Meaningful

Inspiration from just a simple words

There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see the world, I will marry you.'

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend.

He asked her,'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him.

Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine.'

This is how the human brain often works when our status changes. Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most painful situations.

Life Is a Gift

Today before you say an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak.

Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who has nothing to eat.

Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion.

Today before you complain about life - Think of someone who went too early to heaven

Before you complain about your children - Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.

Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or sweep - Think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before whining about the distance you drive Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.

And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job.

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another - Remember that not one of us is without sin.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your face and think: you're alive and still around.

Memories

I had 2 weeks off in July and had a great sweet memories. Those memories will always in my memory that I'll never forget. Although not all the time I can do what I wished for. But seriously I am very satisfied what has been done. I will not expect more than that. Although during that period I hope to get more time together but I know I shouldn't demand so much. When I have limited time and I know if I don't grab the time it will be don't know when will have it again. May be because of this indirectly I made people besides me felt I'm too demanding and back off. My emotional up and down whenever I know it's limited time...I just wish to have more time and cherish every moment. Don't wish to see because of this caused problems. Feel sorry if it does.

If it is problem I need someone tell me directly. Communication without communicate is not a communication. Without a communication will never solve a problem. Claps will never happen with only one hand.

When it is sad moments I'll think of these sweet memories I had. Even just short time but I'm happy enough to have it. Sweet memories come from who you with and not where you are. Always in my mind for sure...

Family Dinner

26 July 2008 Family Dinner, Taman AST, Seremban.

Due to I have demos @ Pavilion on that day and only can be late home late. Whole family was waiting for me. I arrived Seremban around 8:45pm. It was a rushing day for me. This round the family dinner really a total whole family. Father, Mother, eldest sis and her family 4 of them, 2nd sis and her family came back holiday from Perth just for 1 week, 3rd sis and her husband..soon they are migrating to Perth as well, brother came back from Jakarta...he sent to there to work for 1 year and just being sent over, and myself. It is very seldom got such chance to have everybody together. I'm glad to see this. I always wish to have everybody together but it is hard to have now. Since young, we seldom have family reunion together...may be when I'm still very young got but not when I grown up. May be is my age gap with siblings and everyone started to have own family. I brought camera thought to have family photo. But too bad didn't manage to take it :(( very sad. Wonder when can it takes again...

Here the food photos taken from the restaurant we went.

Medicine chicken (Yok Choy Kai). The chicken very soft and the medicine taste heavy. I like to drink the soup. Very delicious dish.

Onion Fish Fillet . Delicious dish also.

Duck. Good as well. Heard sis said in perth one duck cost AUD 30+ its expensive leh.

Vege..fan shu miu. We had 2 plates fried in 2 different style. I love to eat this vege. Last time mum said they plant this vege themselve.

Kung Po Gou Lou Yuk. My sis kids like to eat gou lou yuk. I also like.

This is one of the famous dish in this shop. Fish head meehoon. In seremban this dish started famous was from one restaurant in Sikamat. But this restaurant has good fish head meehoon also. The soup nice. Got fish balls as well.

Marmite Crab. The dish we will definitely call when come to this restaurant. One of the crab I like. In July I had 3 times of crabs. Each time different taste. Great. Below is the sauce for the crab. Nice sauce.Although can't take whole family pic but I still wanted to have a pic with sis from Perth and mum. My mum said dont want at first but sis told will not show anyone. But I have to say sorry to Mum...cos I'm showing it here. I find mum is looking good. Here with my 2nd sis and 3rd sis and mum pic. Taken the pic the night before I leaving back to KL. Soon both sis leaving here and leaving mum and dad alone at home. That night I cried for my mum bcos knowing she is stubborn on eating habit. Currently 3rd sis cook for her. Worried after she left mum will just simply cook for herself. She did say that she just cook as normal. Mum never has health conscious in her mind. I so worried. If she has no discipline to take care herself how would it be?

Sorry guys...gotta take out the pic...I really look terrible :(((

I look so tired. yeah I am. Mum is getting skinnier and smaller size. But great to see her still ok. Hope she is getting better. According to doctor her cancer cells lesser. Pray for her and wish everyone stay healthy.

Almost Lover

A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover
It touches me. Speaks my voice from bottom of my heart. It's been sad days for me...

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

Well I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

Well I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

Break

It is breaking time. I do thought of letting go. But think about it...been thru so many things got me to this stage. I don't want just let it be a waste. I've got shut off not only once but twice. It hurts. I know I'm not as expected. I am nothing to anyone. I'm just an ordinary woman that wishes to get loves. I'll try my best to reach the par. Although I still no confidence on myself. Lack of confidence will kill everything. But I'm telling myself to hold on it. If you ever let go you would have not know what is going on in future. Don't simply give up. Yes, that is right. I don't want let go just like this. I've worked on it with my best heart. I do things with full of hearts...it should be the way. But learning to be balanced. Not everything do with hearts. You should be rational...do things with brain as well. It is still a learning curve for me to get what I want. Treat it as cooling period. Break for anyone. I believe if the time is right and as long as with hearts. Things will be better and you will get what you wished for. Yeah...I'm praying for it. And I'll be waiting for it. Patience, be tough, be strong, don't give up.

Just Food

1. Kippin Shabu Shabu, Dataran Sunway, Kota Damansara. 30 Jul 2008

Had this with my crazie friends. 3 of us had all these! hehe. we were so full. We enjoyed the food. It's nice. This shop is one of my friend's friend open one. only 1 week old. The food quality good. I like the soup and the sauce. We ordered 3-4 persons set at RM88.80 and some side dishes. Total Rm110+.

These are the the food we had. A lot? hehe

Closer look of some of the dishesThe seafood and mushroomsI love the balls. One of the type is prawn one. Nice. The sauce they have. 2 types. one of it is satay sauce taste (on the left) but I like the right one. More spicy.I had the porridge soup. My friend had chicken soup. Both nice. The chicken soup enough taste. But with porridge different. First time I had porridge soup steamboat. Like it. They have Tom Yum as well but we didn't order.

The shop's name - Kippin Shabu Shabu

2. Wan Tan Mee, Old Klang Road. Near Kuchai Lama. 28 July 2008.
Nice wan tan mee. It's quite well known. I got to know this many years ago. And my friend once a while will have this. Below is the dumpling. Their dumpling big and full of fillings. Only 80 cents per pcs.


Duck mee, Kota Kemuning.

I seldom go out lunch. But there was one day colleagues said the duck mee very nice and famous. So I just follow them to try it. No regret. It is duck leg chinese medicine soup. I had mee soup. They sell dry mee and separate with the stew soup. You also can choose eat with rice. But I recon try the mee. Their mee super tasty. I like. Small RM6.50 Big 7.50.
Cinnamon, buffet dinner @ One World Hotel. 23 July 2008.

I've blogged about this restaurant. But this time I took more pictures of the food and wanted to show here. The buffet cost RM80++ per person. Not all are great. But they are still good to be mentioned.

Salad bar and all sorts of appetizers. This round I don't try at all.

Sashimi, sushi and seafood section. Definitely one of my favorite section that I must go. Love the sashimi, oysters and the rest.Some local delicacies. Satay etc, chicken rice, rendang etc. Which I didn't try at all. Wonder good or not.

Western section. Salmon, beef, lamb, grilled veges. All nice. Besides this is pasta section with 2 types of soups. I tried both and really delicious. Especially the mushroom soup full of mushroom taste. Nah...not like those from campbell mushroom soup k.Tempura and fried seafood section. Only been to this section for a look for this round. Last time didn't know about this. But no try.Dim sum, soup section, Luk Luk section. Tried both types of braised soup. Delicious. Dim sum no try. But heard friends said so so only.Desserts section. As usual there is a choc fountain. Didn't really try the desserts. Some of it tried by friends and kena complaint. May be not a wise to fancy it.Fruits, bun and ABC section. The buns are so hard. But the cheese nice. Wanted try ABC but too full at that time.

Teoh Chew style chicken rice/porridge, Kok Kok Kai @ Jalan Pudu
Remember that day is after tuition at Pavilion. Then we head to this shop call Kok Kok Kai. Heard friends said and it was my first time try the food. Seriously it is good. Whatever showed in the pics below are nice. They serve porridge or rice that you can choose. I had porridge. Especially love the sour vege soup.
Chou Tau Fu & Chicken Wings, Sri Petaling Pasar Malam every Tuesday
I don't remember how long I didn't jalan pasar malam until last month (don't remember) which Tuesday I no longer got class and this pasar malam in Sri Petaling is on Tuesday. Used to jalan with my gang one. So since no class on Tuesday and feel like going...Been there consecutive 2 weeks. And every time there sure que up to buy this Smelly Tauhu (Chou Tau Fu). RM3 for 5 pcs. Nice with the sauce and its crunchy. Next surely I'll buy is the chicken wings showed below. It is Nam Yu chicken wings (is kind of marinate method). RM4 for 3 pcs. Yummy! I can say shop at pasar malam is even much much expensive than anywhere else. Not economy at all :D

I do enjoy food. And enjoy having delicious food with friends. Imagine so many food I tried and is believable I can gain weight easily. Yeah..I get fat easy even just eat one bowl of mee or drink lots of water or any drinks. Think because is the age catch up and extremely low metabolism I have. Yes...I know I'm fat...don't mention so many times. Thought I don't wish can enjoy the food and keep slim body? Everyone wishes for as well. It's annoying when I can't and feeling sad deeply in my heart. The only thing can do is after enjoyed have to work double or triple time harder at gym. It's not easy...pathetic...

Health Problem

Lately noticed my body getting weak. Got to know from a nutritionist, I'm having liver problem that caused all my tiredness eyes, dark circles, tensions on my shoulders. I believe it cos I can feel it. Once I stopped exercise for 2-3 days and when start teaching again I have problem and feel blackout again. I felt hard to breath.

I have problem to sleep well at night. No matter how tired I am but I still can't sleep. And can't sleep long hours. These few nights even worst. Half way sleeping I can feel my legs and arms numb. Can't even move. Until I have to put a pillow to lift up my legs then only feel better. Another bad thing is I got cramp out of sudden when I stretched a little bit. The cramp pain you can't imagine. It caused me gotta pop up from bed to adjust for relieving the pain. It is so painful. I have cramp always especially from sleep. What's wrong?

My priority now is to rest more. But how? Can't even sleep well. Lack of nutritions from food. Will try to get some supplements. I wish I am staying with family that someone can take care. Anyone needs care. So do I. Even just mentally support and cares from just a call or just a msg I am satisfy.

When age catches up will have all such health problems. sigh.... my thumb still pain. It's like cripple. Can't hold things. Have to do things slowly...

Broken thumb

Sorry that after so long not blogging and now start again with those emotional entry. I have no one talks to. So just to use here to speak my voice. Hope my voice being hear. I still really hope the situation changes.

Today did some trick and accidentally sprained left thumb. Until whole palm can't move. It is still pain now and I can't stretch my fingers esp the thumb. swollen. It is hardly hold a thing. Hope it gets better tomorrow.

Torturing

I am having torturing situation now. Imagine someone you care, you love that contact with everyday out of sudden no more news. Stopped contacting you without letting you know what is happening. Is like walk out from your life. This kind of feeling is really killing. I hate seeing someone I care leave me alone especially with unknown reason.

I don't know what is happening. What can I do? Is it something that I did cause it? I tend to make mistake unconsciously and regret at later. I know I always screw what I am having. I cherish everything I had and I don't wish to loose it. However in the end I will loose it. Is it my fault or destined to be like this?

I'm not trying to be drastic or drama here. I know I'm too emotional. Some how I can't control it. Hate myself for doing it at the beginning and regret in the end. I've hurt many people in my life. I deserved to get more hurts from others. That's my pay. It just don't meant to be mine.

I've committed in it which I'm not suppose to. But I have no regret to commit even how hurt I am having now. You may say I'm silly but that's just me. Even I fall I still smile and glad what I had before. May be it became memories...but I still hope it is not. Hope it is real forever.

I AM SORRY to whom I've hurt or offended. Sorry may not enough. I can only do this as for now unless you give me a chance to pay for what I did.

It's torturing. It is never feel good. My heart scrambled. My mind locked in the very deepest dark room. When can I see the bright.

Hope my voice being hear by you.