Spoil my plan

Last night after RPM classes, others RPM kaki, new friends I've made invited me join them for dinner in conjunction celebrate birthday for one of them. suppose planned no dinner and sleep early but all screw. hehe. Since ppl ajak then go la. Enjoyed the moment with them also. Eng Guan was there also. Went to this d'Italian Kitchen next to TF Jaya33. I said wanna go there since never been ther and heard su yee commented the food esp pasta nice. Wanna try. Pasta is one of my favourite actually. Their menu quite a lot to choose esp pasta. Wah make me wanna try all. I got recommended to try special for the month. A hot pasta which is in tomato paste with seafood and put in aluminium foil and baked. But can't remember the name of the pasta. It tastes good. At least not so heavy compare to Carbonara. But then most of them ordered Carbonara. Which is my favourite!! deng...can't have creamy carbonara since it is late dinner lor :( May be try next time.

 

d'italian kitchen @ Jaya33

  

the hot pasta I had. many mushrooms and tomatoes. A big crab and prawn. I skipped the crab.

  

My drink. Apple, Celery and Mint Juice. Nice but sweet. Notice they got a lot of different green green color drinks. hehe. Interesting. Wanna try all. Their drinks also special.

  

The cake for the birthday girl. It is orange cheese cake! I been forced to eat big big piece of it!!! duh. But it is nice...too sweet for me actually.

 

The cake given by the restaurant if anyone birthday. It is real good! Yum Yum..but fat fat hehe

I had super full dinner last nite since I don't dinner like this for some time. Until I cant sleep early. Now very sleepy and moody today. To my dear friends who is food lover, you should try this restaurant. Or invite me also can :D

Oh no...coming Wednesday got a buka puasa buffet dinner invited by taipan jam members also. In pyramid. :D must puasa these 2 days in order to stuff all the food again. yeah...today and tomorrow just vege and fruits for breakfast, lunch, dinner! and gonna go workout more more more tonight!

Freak

What freak I am? I think I wan be gym freak once again. Just like what said in new release dvd. Everyone is freak and be friend with freaks. Yeah admit myself is a freak also. Lately I am changing my workout schedule. Don't want be lazy anymore. Started to put RPM in one of my workout schedule. So not me. hehe. But since started first RPM last Monday, I want to keep it up. Did another one last Wed and last night did back to back again. hohoho. From now onwards, try to do RPM back to back on Monday. Tuesday, will do cardio wave, combat and may be hot yoga, Wed if possible RPM and BStep. Thursday either rest or RPM / Step? Friday - Sunday as usual doing my own class and add extra workout if got time and energy. Can't let myself to rest. Must work harder to reach my target. And now after each workout session will try to have steam bath. It feels good after a hardwork and got the steambath. Relax. :) Hope soon I reach my target....hehe

So are you a freak???

Someone with authority can do anything that wished?

If someone in an organization with authority is it suppose can do anything that they wish to? No need to follow rules and procedures? I found that something happened last nite which not sure whether is it true. Saw someone doing a class which I don't think he did the training. Where knowing someone else is available and qualify to do the class and yet for this person to do it. What I'm thinking is what for is the training? If no training also can do what we've gone thru useless? In this case, any cats and dogs also can do. What is this about?

Miss Mum

Just called mum to ask about her conditions. Today heard my sis said she told my bro since sis left whole house very quiet. Most of the time she is alone at home. Dad only at home when need to cook for her. The rest of the time Dad always hang outside. Left mum alone at home. Brother in Indon because of work assignment. Just now talked a while with mum. She has nothing to do at home. Apart from just watching tv programs from Astro or sleep then nothing else can do. She said very boring. I feel pity for her. How I wish I can be home and accompany her. Now thinking what else she can do at home? If you guys have any suggestions please let me know k. I can understand the feeling staying alone at home do nothing and can't go out. Is like in a jail. Very bored. Really need to think what else mum can do....

I told mum if she wants to visit anyone let me know and I'll bring her. Then she said...no one is welcome sick person :( she said like this mean that she is mind herself sick like this. She thought everyone doesn't like to entertain sick person. She some more said if hang out others like need to tolerate her. She can't eat and just sit there to see others eating. She should be feel uncomfortable. She felt others don't really like it as well. This makes her only stay at home and don't want go anywhere :( my poor mummy....

Still Waiting

I am still waiting and forever waiting. Waiting for something that might not get an answer.

What if one day I stopped thinking of you will you mind? I bet you won't mind.

How I wish I will not thinking of you every now and then. So that I won't be so suffering.

Why I need to control my emotions?

Why you can do it and I can't? What is the reason? Is it you are not serious and I'm too serious?

Why you are not bother to know? Because not interested?

Silly. Fed up. Helpless.

Mid Autumn Weekend

It is nothing special to me if is festive day or normal day. Since I'm in KL and weekend I'll be alone. Initially plan to go back hometown celebrate with family but knowing sister left yesterday and since I have many events on saturday and Monday cant take leave. So just choose to stay in KL. I hope after these tuition period then I can go back visit mum. Since sis left she and dad will be alone at home. Dont know she can take care herself or not.

Saturday was a busy and tiring day. Early morning wake up, find my friend who helps to get mooncake from her uncle. Then go Pavilion before class to get a dinner dress. Did a class with just 1 member. But still do it and GXC ask me why 1 member still so 'lok lik', I said no matter how many member I still need to do it and try my best work harder to motivate anyone. After class went to Jaya33 for BodyJam tuition and BodyStep tuition back to back. Then rush to a wedding dinner at KL. I was so tired. But good to had a gathering with some ex colleagues. After dinner just go home. so so so sleepy while driving home. But I slept late again.

Sunday, as usual, wake up earlier prepare tracks for later class. I spent my mooncake festival with members. After class asked them stay back and had some mooncake which I brought to them. Gave some to some of the regulars. The mooncake is shanghai yam mooncake. Not bad. They like it also. hehe. After that went lunch with Nat and grocery shopping together at Giant Kinrara. Can't do anything anymore but just got home to rest. I took a 2 hours nap yet still not enough. Did some house chores and now I am blogging here. About to sleep soon...

That's it my quiet mooncake fest. No family reunion dinner. No dinner with friends as well. Just alone to have own good time. When alone will think too much and trying not to. So, how's ur weekend?

Waiting

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Surprise Birthday Cake

Everyone has surprise birthday cake except me. I don't even have a whole cake with candles for me to blow.

Everyone has a nice meal treat or present except me. What I have just a simple present from a group of friends which doesn't cost much and it just been put aside which not useless to me. And I don't have anyone arrange a celebration dinner for me.

I have a lonely birthday this year. I don't get a celebration by a group of close friends I used to celebrate together. Not even a treat or present by them. Even I ask for it none of them take it seriously.

What I can do for myself is asked for a dinner. And thanks to Daphne and Mee Kee willing to celebrate with me on the day. Especially they have to sacrify their favourite gym class and treat me a good meal. Thank you very much. Love you both. Not forget those sincere friends that wished me. Also not forget one of the Jam member that gave me an ang pow. She was kind enough thought of get me a present but not sure what I like. So just gave me money.

 

Thank you for the night!!

 

Only a small cake that free from restaurant

What I can see here....

Is not about the materialistic things I get such as cake or present...most important is about the sincerity and thoughts that my friends gave me.

What I can see here....

Even though not a very closed friends like Daphne and Mee Kee, they also willing to celebrate with me. They see me so pathetic no one celebrate with. Give up class and treat expensive meal. And also just a member remember my birthday and think of get me something. How about the friends I closed with? Nothing. May be just wishes...

What I can see here....

My position in my closed friends heart. I treat them as true friends. Try best to arrange any birthday surprise but in the end what I get?

What I can see here....

I rather not receive anything rather than a present that worth nothing. May be just a simple meal better than this.

It is OK to have lonely birthday which I used to have. However of course wish to have a sincere friends do something for you that you can feel it...and yes, may be I want the companion. Is the thought that speaks. It past so long but whenever thought of it I'm upset. Especially when see everyone has it but I don't have. I am also disappointed didn't get anything from someone that I love. I thought of expecting something but none also.

You may think this is a small matter. Yeah small matter in terms of what you get physically. But mentally it is important. I see friends important in my life. I see friends as my true friends. I give all my heart and sincere to them. Everything happened that hurt my feeling...sad...upset. That's how my birthday ended up.

Shanghai Yam Mooncake

Got to know my aunty is selling these mooncake and commented is nice. Her shop is in Seremban. One of my colleague also my high school senior know my aunty and bought this for us to try. It tastes good. It is home made. Not expensive compare to those selling out side nowadays. 1 box 4 pieces should be around RM26.

 

 

I don't really like mooncake but will try new thing or good one which recommended. This one yam one not bad. Especially those not sweet one then I'll eat. Like the egg yok. Seem fresh also.

Sleep Not Well

Thought after last night workout so hard will have better sleeps. But it is not! Can't sleep. Not sure how much sleeps I got last night. Seem that I never sleep at all. My brain like still active whole night long. Keep waking up whole night. Gosh...very tired now. I have problem in sleeping these few nights. Wonder why?? I'm trying sleep earlier also can't sleep. Trying to have good sleep also cannot. sigh...

Break the Virginity

What virginity? nah...don't think something else. I just break the virginity for doing RPM class for first time la! haha. Tonight I was crazieeee...joined RPM back to back for very first time ever since I joined gym few years back! Yeah...I never try RPM at all. I was scare to try. Heard that butt and below part damn pain. Some more I am phobia with cycling. Especially for moving bike. Lucky RPM bikes is stagnant. In fact, I don't know how to cycle in correct way. Hopefully I did correct just now. It was so hard...I just not used to the feeling. May be not familiar with the bike. The feeling just same as the first time I did Cardio Wave. So hard to push. Well, first time mar, take it easy lor. haha. Some 2 classes wor. Need to join more to get condition with it. I will not stop doing it, will try again next week...hopefully can back to back as well. hmmm thinking should I do again once this week? My first time feeling...shiok! hehe. Push and push...eh but I don't make any noises wor...aiyah tarak chance to see tat member which ahhou mentioned. haha. With the funny sounds sure more fun :p

Can someone tell me if do RPM more can loose weights? Can slim and tone the legs? But I heard some said will get trunk legs wor. so which is true? slim legs or trunk legs? I don't want make my legs bigger which already big! tips...tips...

ooopppsss suppose planned to do 2 RPM then following hot yoga. Tak jadi la...tak mampu lagi. so crazy in RPMs tarak energy anymore. I scare later I'll pengsan in the room. haha. One RPM already sweat so much. Whole baju wet. I was feeling cold half way. May be sugar level dropped neh. Tarak dinner. So later wear a jacket for 2nd class. haha others see me said I crazy...so hot still wear jacket. But I feel ok wor. At least I don't feel chill half way. I have a cold body I guess. Weak weak. You know what...the jacket also wet! Next time must change. OK now legs pain...but feel good. Hopefully I can sleep better tonight. Didn't sleep well last night..donno why. Alright...doze off now la...my panda eyes getting darker :(

Being Too Nice

Being nice to anyone is good. But being too nice not necessary a good thing. Being nice to others not necessary to get the return where they will be nice to you. I'm trying be nice to everyone and don't expect people will be nice to me. However sometimes it is disappointed and upset that even though the person you treated nice but not treat you nice, worst is did something that hurt your feeling. Or not appreaciates what you did. Even from a small matter, you will see a true friend whether they treat you good. Being nice to someone is a matter of how sincere. I rather not treat me good if it is not sincere. I'm getting fed up with people around which I treat them nice but in return they hurt my feelings. May be they don't notice it but in directly they did. I am thinking...should I be nice anymore? What I expect is true friends...with true heart...with sincerity....

I have something wish to write it here...which it kept in my heart for long. May be is time for me to release it. Whenever I thought of it I will feel sad. Whenever things happen around that reminds me I feel sad. May be you may think it is a small matter but to me is important and real feeling to me. May be after I wrote will offend friends around me. Should I write? But if I don't say it out I'll be upset all the time and let them make me sad over and over again.

Why am I still updating?

You will wonder why I said I want to stop update here but still updating? I also don't know why. I just feel that may be only here which I can express myself. Write whatever I wanted to write. When thought of something I'll just write it down. May be just words. less pics esp of myself. Allow me continue to update whenever I wanted to at anytime. Currently I have no mood and don't know what to write here. Wonder got readers or not also...

我病了

I'm terribly sick now. I don't know what is the cause and how to cure it. But feel sick...very sick.

皮肉之苦

为了达成目标，受皮肉之苦，值得吗？

满足

人，需要满足感，但，要如何才能满足自己， 满足别人？人，永远是贪心的，永远不能满足。要去满足别人是件难事，要满足自己更难。往往有些事情无论你多努力去做，始终还是不能满足别人的要求。觉得好辛苦。懊恼为什么不能达成自我的要求，别人的要求？满足，满足，永不能满足。。。哎！

内心世界

我的内心世界到底是怎么了？如何才能知道我心里需要什么？如何去表达我的内心感受？如何才能达到自我的境界?达到心如止水...

Sacrifice

Sacrifice...is the word for myself now. I can do anything for the objective I want to meet. Even make myself in deep troubles. Don't care anymore. I hope I will not regret. I hope I can achieve it. Really scares will loose everything. Scare being alone to bear the troubles. But I will never tell anyone. Hold on the pain by my own. Hold on the worries by my own. That's me.

Keep Silence

I have no mood to blog anymore. Will stopped at this moment. I want to keep silence. Hide myself in the cave. Don't ask me why. You will not be able to see any updates or photos of me anymore. Bye!

Long Weekend

Nothing special for my long weekend. A bit busy and didn't rest much.

Saturday - Workshop

Time to have quarterly workshop again. This round the timing shuffled. The program I'm doing is at later afternoon. Went earlier to have lunch first. Not so much mood and feel lost in the workshop. May be alot newbies don't know and alot from overseas. Also was not in mood due to something.

Before lunch

 

  

Lunch at KLCC food court. My mood gets better after got a call from someone. Then attend the education. After education is BodyStep master class. The choreography and musics not bad. Got some nice one..songs from bodyjam previous release...Green Light, freemason remix, Feedback and Wall To Wall. Got some new moves. New bodystep not that hard.

After BodyStep straight away is BodyJam. Have a quick change and manage to snap some photos before the class starts.

Before BodyJam
 

  

  

After Body Jam

  

  

Don't know why...this time I don't feel much feeling...not so high. may be don't know the moves? Not so concentrate to pick up the moves. Just can't as high as others but still had fun. New choreography ok. New interesting moves. It has Tribal dance, Latin, Big Phat Aussie House...some musics are nice. Yet to learn the new chory yet...is time for tuitions and practices...yet got the mood.

Dinner

 

  

  

  

As usual one whole gang dinner together. Went to Madam's Kwan. I had Nasi Boujari. Then sharing the 3 dessert above with another 2 persons. Ice Kacang, Cendol and Sago Gula Melaka. Only like cendol the rest so so. The nasi good. Have a quick dinner and didn't stay chit chat. May be tired and want to home earlier. Had a long chat on the phone with someone. Happy :)

Sunday - Classes

I have holiday classes @ pavilion. De-motivated classes I had. Zero member or only 1 member. But at least workout a bit and had long steaming. Then shop at Mercato for groceries. Bought expensive stuffs which I feel like cooking. Spent huge on those stuffs. :( I was at pavilion for 5+ hours. Spent RM100 and above free first 2 hours. But when the time leaving surprisingly it is free parking...huh? why ar? don't know. happy can save the parking fees...expected to pay at least 6-8 bucks. No traffic jam and home fast. Just had sandwich for dinner. Nothing much at the night...just internet as usual...sien...

Monday - Pamper myself

Had facial. Good one. Thought see doctor but clinic not open. Went to Curve shop for a while. Spent again. Aiks. Bought nike stuffs at 50%. aiyoh can't resist. But then I need more pants as my existing ones a lot color fading off. washed too much. Some split. Thought of search for wig for mum. She needs it to attend function coming weekend but can't find. Wonder where can I find?? No time to shop leh...

That's is my weekend. normal one. thought meet some friends but all not free. well...alone also good la. can do my own stuffs. don't feel like blogging actually. Just update for a sake. don't ask me update again. I'll update when I want to. I'm very tired and wanted to sleep early but still cant. Now 12+am. Spent the time updating here instead sleep..sigh. OK doze off now...