Lonely

I don't like the feeling being left out. Like everyone forgetting me already. I feel lonely here.

Quick Post

Have a quick post here. I have many things to tell to share. But yet got the mood sit down and write them down. There are things happened just within these 2 weeks. Need to be recorded down. Soon I'll update everything.

As am writing here I heard a lot of dogs barking surround my house. Very scary especially those mooning sounds. Scare to be alone at home.

Good night...

Can't be strong anymore

As I am writing here I am at hospital accompany mum till the last second she can hold. Doctor says mum leaving anytime now. We all here with her. Everybody tries the best with her.

I am not strong now..got sick suddenly. Week n whole body aching. Feeling cold. I am so lousy, got sick at this moment. I am struggling with my body pain n seeing mum struggling as well. Hopefully she can hang on till tmrw as we plan bring her home tmrw.

Hope miracle happens n bless my mum with whole heart. Wish she will be fine.

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Should I be prepared?

So far how's ur 2009? I don't feel smooth since started the new year. Did not happen any bad things but don't feel good at all. Hopefully later will be better ahead bah.

Sorry for not updating the blog. I've been busy doing something else and also busy with work. There are things happened in this new year so far. My classes at TF been cut and now I don't have any classes already. sad :( my efforts not applicable now. May be still got some replacement classes but very few. Can say I am free whole week but in fact not free also. As you know busy at work. work till late. tired after work and no time do something else. Is life like this? sometimes will ask...busy at gym will say no life....now no busy at gym anymore still say no life...

Beside les mills program, which not giving me good return, I am trying to learn freestyle step now. did my very own first step class by replacing at a small studio. Still manageable with a bit hiccup but still ok I presume. Most probably will take over the class and hope from there I am able to pick up and able to teach better in freestyle step class. I've been wanted to pick up this as I am interested in it. Problem and worry is the choreography. Been researching a lot regarding it and hopefully slowly get used to it bah.

As you see this entry's title...should I be prepared? what I need to prepare? I also donno how should I say.  Lately been to hospital few times due to mum admitted, discharged and admit again. Now she is still in hospital. Reason mum in hospital due to she has difficultly to eat until she can't even walk. Has to carry her. Doctor said she has viral infection on her throat, mouth and lung. That's why she complain pain when eat. So no choice, have to put a hose from mouth to her stomach to feed her. But these few days after feed her, her stomach bloated. At first my sis sms me telling me this sound so serious, I am prepare to go see her already. Then later doctor said may be over feed and some other reason. But we know her liver tumor is getting bigger and harder. However it is not because of the tumor sudden bloated. She has water retention and doesn't pass pee much. Lots of reasons cause her bloated. Again, just now received a sms from sis, said mum has breath difficulty and eye swollen and very yellow. She has jaundice due to liver mulfunction. I was so worried and sis ask me to go back if I can. I just left work that time. So called to understand the situation and later sis say no need go there since is late. So plan go see her tomorrow after work.

By looking at my mum condition now, donno should we be prepared for the day comes or hopefully she is getting better? But it seems never get better but worst. Every time friend ask me about my mum, I really donno how to answer...she has a lot of side effects from the chemo cause her suffering now. Really heartache to see when unable to help. How I wish I can answer that my mum is getting better and better! I would be happy to answer this. But is sad it is the other way. I can't hold my tears whenever think of her and see her just lying on the bed and can't move and talk at all.

sorry guys...I donno how to write anymore...I'm tired already...should go for a rest. good night....

Yesterday's lunch

Yesterday follow colleague lunch at pudu. First time to this place. It sells foochow food and got this specialty which is red rice wine meeshua and also the foochow famous fish ball. The food not bad but very little portion. I find the meeshua something special which I never try.

Red Rice Wine Mee Shua...actual is in very red color. I didn't try it but tasted the soup. Nice. May be try next time. RM7.

 

I had this instead...foochow fish ball noodle. The fishball very big size inside stuff with meat. RM4.

  

The shop. Lots of paper cutting show how famous they are.

  

Part of the menu with the shop's name

 

Seremban Food...Rich Lunch

Last weekend was in Seremban so take a chance to try back the food that I've missed for long long time. This chicken rice I ate it since very young with my family. I remembered before school or after school sure go with parents and siblings. Until the food seller know us very well. What so special with the chicken rice? chicken rice is second. I like the most is the black char siew we called it burnt char siew cos very very black one. The sauce sweet and sticky and yummy. And I like the soup very much also. It is cucumber soup which you can't get the taste else where. Last weekend I purposely drive over there to ta bao home eat with sis. Let's show u the pics lar....

the shop name

 

the chicken rice with siew yuk...still good taste wor

  

yay at last tried the dark char siew again...still yummy

 

Another thing to say about the restaurant I went for dinner. The food no doubt are good especially the fish head beehoon. But don't go during weekend!! U have to wait for super long! We were pissed with the service and slowness of the food came out. Not because of the food I will leave early. Just a complaint about this shop and let you know the shop's name! kekeke

Rich Lunch!!!

Today first day work in 2009. Out of sudden boss came in our office and count how many of us. Then ask us wanted go lunch or not. I was wonder why leh? later found out he wants to buy everyone lunch lor. total 19 of us who back to work (those still on holiday no 'hao fuk' lar ;) ). Didn't know where lunch until reach there. Donno the restaurant name, donno where it is, just know some where in KL. kakaka. because not me driving and first time go to this place. Quite an old building but got this chinese restaurant. We booked 2 tables and know what we having??? hehhee we having expensive dishes just like those wedding dinner :p for lunch leh.

I was too hungry and forgot take pics and lazy take lar. Pai seh to ask everyone wait for me take pics only can start eating. Just managed took 2 and will show later. Let me tell what are the dishes first.

1. "lang poon" which consists of 4 types dishes, 海贽with abalone slice, pork rib, crab meat and shark fin's fried egg, 佛跳墙 (chicken cubes with fried yam).

2. 鱼翅 Sharfin's soup

3. 乳猪 Piglet

 

4. Batin Patin Fish

5. Yin Yong Duck and Chicken

6. Vegetarian dish includes lots of mushrooms and nai bak (love the mushrooms)

7. 腊肠Fried Rice

8. Dessert - Omochi &窝饼 and longan soup

I think that's all we had. Very yummy and rich leh. I ate so full until now no dinner at all :p Donno why boss so good. May be is new year's lunch for first day of work in 2009. That's good de neh...but other side spoiled my diet plan! sob sob :p

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Actually I have an ulcer on my inner lip so pain leh. But still can eat so much hoh. hahaha. Imagine I just have one ulcer already feel the pain. Can't imagine my mum whole mouth lips or tongue full of ulcers. Can't blame her don't eat and drink lar. Kesian mum lar :(....she still stay in hospital and probably only can discharge next Monday. Then it will be 1 week stay in hospital leh. I know mum doesn't want to stay in hospital and she wants get better. However still the same...slow recover. sigh. I really really hope she recovers soon and no need suffer like this lar. I feel the pain as she is feeling now but just 1% of hers. :((( Went back see her yesterday and tomorrow and sunday will visit her as well. Try to be with her as much time as I can. I am tired of driving but have to lar. Wish any god around please help my mum recovers....

good night....