Q4 Les Mills Quarterly Workshop

Every quarter we will have a workshop for Les Mills programs master class to learn new releases. So it is a tension time for us again...because have to learn new chory before next launch! Seriously this time I love the quarterly...because the two programs I joined were BodyStep and BodyJam. both master class superb. BodyStep celebrate it's 70's release which using 70's musics and 70's essence. More fun and disco feel. More performance. So harder than this time. But I like it. For BodyJam, so so so like the master class. Tracy and Kylie were so great with new moves. This new release has more different moves including disco as well :p, Reggaeton, New School House block with african jungle jump etc. Wah...this jump a bit hard to do. But I like the songs and the moves. Time to remember the chory already...sob sob. Time time time and my memory!! :D Here the photos taken from quarterly. Thanks to Osman ;) Click on the pic to go to the link for more pictures.

BodyStep

BodyJam

Bad News but Think Positively

Today sis just told me mom's report is out. It is Advanced Stage which means infected both liver. So coming surgery will just remove the tumor from intestine then for liver part need to do chemo. Just now went back Seremban after work to have dinner with mom. Good to see her again and she said little bit pain only. She still look ok at the moment. And thank that she is quite optimistic. At first I was worry about her..sometimes she really worry a lot type of people. Sis said must make mom no worries then only can help on the illness.

Just now few aunties came to visit also. Then we all went dinner together. Everyone worries about mom but we all look at the bright side. Everything will be fine. Must think positively now and like my brother said it can cure one. Sis suppose migrating early Dec but she postponed the plan. Wait till mom get better from chemo then only bring mom together to Perth for recovery. Now we stop mom to take care the shop which she is doing daily. Sisters and bro figured out to settle the living for dad and mom and the medical bill. Mom no medical coverage from insurance :( so sis has to pay for it. Lucky I have elder sisters and brother for all these. I only can give mentally support to mom as much as possible.

Advice to all, please bring your folks for medical checkup regularly. Don't wait till they said pain only go for doctor, it will be too late. For the sake of you and your family, make sure you are always in healthy condition. Don't let your family and friends worry about you if you got sick. Health is the most important than others. Start think about it. Sis told me to go for checkup since mom has cancer, so we might have possibility to get cancer also. Lately I felt a bit unusual pain on lower abdominal. For those who don't know, I had medical history where operated once to remove ovary cysts few years ago. Hope it won't come back again...finger cross.

Result

My mistake. Mom's tumor is not in uterus. is in intestine. This evening sis told me report is out and confirmed is cancerous. Is a bad news to me. Now looking for a hospital and let mom has surgery. Hopefully after surgery everything is fine. Finger cross. God Bless Her.

I need to be strong now. Can't cry. It has been a critical period for me...very hard to go thru but will try. Learn to be tough be strong.

Update: Mom will admit hospital tomorrow (Tuesday) and surgery to remove the tumor on Wednesday morning. Tonight (Monday) after work will go back to see her and try to take leave on Wednesday if possible.

Worry

Just heard that my mom is sick now...she has uterus tumor :( Today just took sample from the tumor and send to KL hospital for analysis to see is it cancerous or not. Next week only know result. Hopefully and finger cross she is fine. Let's pray....

Pity my mom la...she pain for 2 months already never tell us. Until now very very pain only we knew it. She should have ask us bring her to see doctor early. Old people is like that, pain and never think of see doctor one. I feel bad and sorry that I didn't go back often to check on her. Lucky now got sis in Seremban to take care of her. Heard that she had hard time from the pain today to get the sample. Heartache when heard of it from my sis :(

I can't do anything now...what can I do??? I really hope she is fine. I don't want her suffer la. And yet nothing we can do :(

Can't help myself from crying now...really useless. Too much worries from so many things...I'm gonna collapse soon.

Can't Focus

Just now in the gym after wave and before jam class I nearly lost my iPod. I went toilet and forgotten to take it out together. Lucky I discovered earlier and quickly go to toilet and wait for the girl came out. Lucky it is still there! phew. If not I'll be crying without tears. I think is because too tired. Too much worries. Made me lost my way.

Anything can boost me up? I need it!

Something I've done

I've did something which I don't know right or wrong. May be it's a silly thought. But my gut to tell me to do so and I did it. No matter what will happened after this, no expectations although I wish to have a positive sign to me. I'm glad I'm able to do so. Let all out from me. Wish me luck.

Almost Accident

This morning when driving to work as usual using Kerinchi Link. From federal highway go up the highway...there is an accident just right at the corner which the cars behind unable to see it. It was raining and floor wet. Lucky I didn't drive fast which I used to...when reach at the corner out of sudden all cars stopped...have to emergency break but the road too wet and my car skidded. Lucky next lane no car so I just moved to that side. And lucky car behind me also managed to break but I can see nearly hit me. Phew...lucky managed to stop and car not skid much. What happened was the car don't know how it bang and the whole car blocked 1 whole left lane...hopefully the drive is ok.

Clement's Farewell

28 Oct 2007 - Farewell party for Clement. He is leaving to BKK for work. I was organizing the food and make sure everyone brings food :p In fact that night more than enough food. Many varieties and nice :) In the morning after breakfast we went we market to buy fish ball. Then follow Clement went Giant buy the necessary stuffs for the party. Went home rest a while and at larry place around 3+pm. Helped to blow balloons and tied the balloons. Suppose I am cooking chicken wings but thank god got Joey helped :p. Since early morning non-stop preparing and guests coming at 5+ and so...

The food bit by bit coming in. Those who came later miss the earlier dishes which gone fast :D Some of them just makan and watch So U Think U Can Dance. It was wonderful night. See all in green color very nice. I think the most happiest is Clement lor. Ate a lot that night...after that week gain lots of weight leh :( sigh. I was the first one be there and the last one left. I stayed up till about 1am. Superb tired and next day gotta work some more...sob sob.

OK la photos speak the word...click on the pic and will lead you to Osman site which have a nice layout with nice pics! I so like the pics...all in green color. Others from my camera pls go to here.

Raya Open House

27 Oct 2007 - Hari Raya Open House organize by Osman & Mike at their place. That night full of 40-50 people. Great to see some friends that been long time no see since I've quit FF. Had a blardy full night (satays, popiahs, 4 big cakes & ice creams!).

After the gathering I follow my gang to La Queen. It's been long long time no clubbing with them. Been to La Queen think got 3-4 times. It was last night clubbing with Clement in KL. Super tired on that night. Only slept at 4+ in the morning. Next morning woke up at 9+am to have breakfast :p

Here the group pic taken that night. Click on the pic to see more pics from Osman site. Thanks to Osman for such nice site arrangement :)

Something Changed

Lately I felt there are difference...something changing in me. It leads me to worry, anxious, depress and emotional. I'm lost now...

Frightened

On Thursday night, I was studying for next day exam till 3:30am. An hour later in the middle of my sleep I heard noisy sounds...sounds came from my laptop keyboards. Then I turn around my body (my bed next to the table where I put laptop and next to laptop I put my handphone. And a window next to my bed and table and facing corridor out from lift. It was opened while I'm sleeping.) I got shock after turned around. I saw a hand holding a stick came from outside the windows trying to hook my mobile and it can't reach thats why keep touching laptop keyboard which made the sounds. My first instinct is to grab the stick and shout. When I look out from my windows the thief ran away. Didn't manage to see his face. I should have grab the hand instead the stick. But too late to think about it. Quickly closed the windows. I was too shocked till my whole body felt cold and shiver. Can't even sleep again. I didn't wake up others since no lost. But at that moment I wish someone can calm me but not as what I'm expecting. My mind kept replay the incident. I'm terrified. Alone to face this at that time. sigh...

Next day morning before I tell my sis about the incident...she told me there is a vase outside my windows. Then I told her about the case. Usually a people stand outside my windows their hand can't reach. Now I know how the thieve tries steal using the vase to climb up. The whole day still can't calm down and kept thinking. Myself very cautious and sensitive to everything around me. The world no longer safe anymore...must be careful anytime anywhere. especially being alone all the time.

From this I see who cares and who doesn't. But never mind...as long as I know now.
This is how outside my room windows look like. And the vase tat fella use to climb up.

Hate Man

At the moment I just want to say I hate man! Don't ask me why. Isn't this is my own blog? I can express what I like to. Whether you like or not. If you choose to read then stay if not then go away. You may read me or know me from my blog. I don't hide. I just write what I like to write. May be this is an easy way for you to know me. But you won't understand me personally. There are things I still can't express here...all hiding within myself. Let me be bitchy a bit here...I am not always good and nice in front of all of you. I still have anger, emotion etc. I am nice to you because I don't hate you or dislike you. So don't take for granted. It may changed one day...

Men are cheater..they are selfish...when they like you, they need you, they will come close to you. At the beginning were very sweet moments. You will fall into the trap. They tend to be nice to you. good to you. But all lies....never trust anyone especially a guy! When they don't need you anymore will forget you totally. How can they be like this? Sorry that I can't do so. Once I like the guy I won't easily forget. Not like men heartless. Where are all the cares? the kindness? the sweet talks? the good memories? all gone! they just turn away in a second. Can't I hate them??

Hopeless to see all these...to gone thru all these...is better shut myself from being hurt or lied. No liar! No man! Is better keep myself away...sooner I have no confidence on men. May be I'm stupid in believing...once and once hurt myself. No more believe...no more trust. That's it!

SHUT!!!