Exam Exam Exam!

I have another certification next wednesday 31 Oct :( Yet to start study leh...die lor. some more this week so bzzzz! This round is DB2 Administration...I think will be harder. sei lor. really have to start study from tomorrow onwards. this weekend no time for sure.

sien la....work in IBM especially in my department got target have to pass 2 certifications count on the year end performance one *bleh.... hate this. I'm not happy now!! And very stressed now!!!

Busy Week

Yeah this week will be quite busy lor especially weekend.

Tuesday - go to Jaya33 and will give Clement a surprise farewell..just a short one and will give him a gift and cake...

Wednesday - 2 wave classes (yeah replace Eng Guan one...not sure got as many members as his one or not)...after wave then is TT with Clement for BJam class. I will be taking over this class next week onwards. (also got pressure since clement's class got many members)

Thursday - so far so good...no class no appointment...may be just go to gym do some cardio and weights.

Friday - Wave class then an early birthday dinner for Larry. He will buy us steamboat at sri petaling. just few of us in the family.

Saturday - (wonder is this day very good day?) why I ask? because I've got a lot invitations fall on this day! 1. Wedding dinner @ Klang - rejected...2. TF Gathering buffet @ Shogun (I wish I can go one) - rejected...3. Farah's daughter 1st year party - rejected...4. Osman & Mike open house cum raya party - going with the gang...it's pot luck...will be about 40 plus ppl. Expecting to see everyone around :D

Sunday - 1. Wedding dinner (used to be my very best friend in primary but long time no in touch) - rejected..pai seh leh but no choice...another more important party have to attend 2. Clement's Farewell party (he is leaving to BKK for work). So Sunday will be busy day also...need to prepare food and party starts at 5pm. I'm in charging food list for all the guests...pot luck party as well. Forsee sure bz bz preparing food..decor house..preparing etc etc... but will be fun.

Hope I won't cry when the time clement leaving la...he is one of my close sisters leh...just like a family for 5 of us.

Silly Thought

I know it is not going to happen. But I still got hope on it. I wish it happened.
I know I'm silly...always wish for impossible thing to happen. Always got disappointed.
so silly....

Stress Lately

Yesterday I just did a certification examination for DB2. It's for work one la. Past few days was so stresses...exhausted...sleepless night. At last it is over at the moment for 1 paper. I still got another one end of this month. Have to study during this raya holiday (I hope I got time :p). Oh yeah... yesterday's exam I've passed! hehe. thank god. I did once before but failed. Lucky this time pass.

I was so tension and my colleagues also felt that from me :p also said I look super 'chan'. Of course la...not enough sleep and mind extremely tired. I had a very bad headache yesterday for whole day. It's like almost explode. Need to catch up my sleep coming holidays *hopefully* haha. But I will have long holiday from Saturday till next Tuesday hiak.

To my muslim friends "Selamat Hari Raya" and drive safe if you are balik kampung :)

Communication

I'm not sure is it the communication break down or is the person changed...we seem not talking as much as previously. Sometimes I do have lots of things wanna share but no chance at all. I'm not sure why and what is happening. Communication is important but also need efforts on it. May be now is not the right timing. I'm not the right one. I wish I can do something to make it better. But I can't...should take it easy and let it be? I wish I can do so...let's pray.

One thing to me is no matter how busy I am and if I'm willing to spend time on something or some person I will make the time. I will put efforts on it. I have hope to see a result. How about u?

Gym Classes

Yesterday was my last day for Hartamas Jam class. This is my first own class. It started since May and it can't last long. Sad for the end but is good also to let go. I don't get encouragement from the class...Anyway it is expected.

I still have other classes to maintain...and some new one coming. I don't want to give up all my efforts even I know is hard for me. But will try. Now what I need to do is concentrate on my career on both work and gym. Others may be think later. May be one day I can have a changed and do what I wish to do. Will work on it. I don't want let others affect it.

Right now only have 2 permanent classes and both Wave - Wed 8pm Taipan and Fri 7:30pm Jaya33. But I donno how long I can maintain...look like it is not doing good also. Wave reminded me someone that always supported the class. Without this person it seems no meaning anymore.

By end of this month will have a permanent Jam slot on Wed 9:10pm Taipan. And when TF Pavilion opened I will have Sat Jam class as well. I hope I can get more classes. So I can make myself more busy and no time to think something else. I need encouragement which I've lost it right now. I need the energy I've got it from someone but no longer at the moment. Pick up myself bah.

No Regret

I have no regret of what I've done so far. To me to express myself is nothing wrong. I will do what I like to do. I will say what I wish to say. May be wrong is my expectation is high and when things not as what you plan, what you wish to see made you disappointed. Is like you have hope but it is suddenly gone. Very sad. I'm sad and heartache seeing a beautiful thing going well but out of sudden it just ended without reasons. Do I still have hope to make it right? Can it be done? Never try never know. But just need a chance for it. Lots of things that we can't control. What you see it now may not same at later. It's life. Start questioning why is it must be like this? Why can't we just happy facing what we are facing now and be brave to overcome it? I always wish I can just do anything I wish to happily without thinking of other problems. Life forced you can't do so. There is always a word "move on" to everyone when things not as what you think. Is it move on can help? I don't know...just keep it as memories may be. There is still hope may be. No one knows....

No regret to yourself...be happy of what you had...hoping there it is better in front of you...