I have another certification next wednesday 31 Oct :( Yet to start study leh...die lor. some more this week so bzzzz! This round is DB2 Administration...I think will be harder. sei lor. really have to start study from tomorrow onwards. this weekend no time for sure.
sien la....work in IBM especially in my department got target have to pass 2 certifications count on the year end performance one *bleh.... hate this. I'm not happy now!! And very stressed now!!!
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Monday, October 22, 2007
Busy Week
Yeah this week will be quite busy lor especially weekend.
Tuesday - go to Jaya33 and will give Clement a surprise farewell..just a short one and will give him a gift and cake...
Wednesday - 2 wave classes (yeah replace Eng Guan one...not sure got as many members as his one or not)...after wave then is TT with Clement for BJam class. I will be taking over this class next week onwards. (also got pressure since clement's class got many members)
Thursday - so far so good...no class no appointment...may be just go to gym do some cardio and weights.
Friday - Wave class then an early birthday dinner for Larry. He will buy us steamboat at sri petaling. just few of us in the family.
Saturday - (wonder is this day very good day?) why I ask? because I've got a lot invitations fall on this day! 1. Wedding dinner @ Klang - rejected...2. TF Gathering buffet @ Shogun (I wish I can go one) - rejected...3. Farah's daughter 1st year party - rejected...4. Osman & Mike open house cum raya party - going with the gang...it's pot luck...will be about 40 plus ppl. Expecting to see everyone around :D
Sunday - 1. Wedding dinner (used to be my very best friend in primary but long time no in touch) - rejected..pai seh leh but no choice...another more important party have to attend 2. Clement's Farewell party (he is leaving to BKK for work). So Sunday will be busy day also...need to prepare food and party starts at 5pm. I'm in charging food list for all the guests...pot luck party as well. Forsee sure bz bz preparing food..decor house..preparing etc etc... but will be fun.
Hope I won't cry when the time clement leaving la...he is one of my close sisters leh...just like a family for 5 of us.
Tuesday - go to Jaya33 and will give Clement a surprise farewell..just a short one and will give him a gift and cake...
Wednesday - 2 wave classes (yeah replace Eng Guan one...not sure got as many members as his one or not)...after wave then is TT with Clement for BJam class. I will be taking over this class next week onwards. (also got pressure since clement's class got many members)
Thursday - so far so good...no class no appointment...may be just go to gym do some cardio and weights.
Friday - Wave class then an early birthday dinner for Larry. He will buy us steamboat at sri petaling. just few of us in the family.
Saturday - (wonder is this day very good day?) why I ask? because I've got a lot invitations fall on this day! 1. Wedding dinner @ Klang - rejected...2. TF Gathering buffet @ Shogun (I wish I can go one) - rejected...3. Farah's daughter 1st year party - rejected...4. Osman & Mike open house cum raya party - going with the gang...it's pot luck...will be about 40 plus ppl. Expecting to see everyone around :D
Sunday - 1. Wedding dinner (used to be my very best friend in primary but long time no in touch) - rejected..pai seh leh but no choice...another more important party have to attend 2. Clement's Farewell party (he is leaving to BKK for work). So Sunday will be busy day also...need to prepare food and party starts at 5pm. I'm in charging food list for all the guests...pot luck party as well. Forsee sure bz bz preparing food..decor house..preparing etc etc... but will be fun.
Hope I won't cry when the time clement leaving la...he is one of my close sisters leh...just like a family for 5 of us.
Silly Thought
I know it is not going to happen. But I still got hope on it. I wish it happened.
I know I'm silly...always wish for impossible thing to happen. Always got disappointed.
so silly....
I know I'm silly...always wish for impossible thing to happen. Always got disappointed.
so silly....
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Stress Lately
Yesterday I just did a certification examination for DB2. It's for work one la. Past few days was so stresses...exhausted...sleepless night. At last it is over at the moment for 1 paper. I still got another one end of this month. Have to study during this raya holiday (I hope I got time :p). Oh yeah... yesterday's exam I've passed! hehe. thank god. I did once before but failed. Lucky this time pass.
I was so tension and my colleagues also felt that from me :p also said I look super 'chan'. Of course la...not enough sleep and mind extremely tired. I had a very bad headache yesterday for whole day. It's like almost explode. Need to catch up my sleep coming holidays *hopefully* haha. But I will have long holiday from Saturday till next Tuesday hiak.
To my muslim friends "Selamat Hari Raya" and drive safe if you are balik kampung :)
I was so tension and my colleagues also felt that from me :p also said I look super 'chan'. Of course la...not enough sleep and mind extremely tired. I had a very bad headache yesterday for whole day. It's like almost explode. Need to catch up my sleep coming holidays *hopefully* haha. But I will have long holiday from Saturday till next Tuesday hiak.
To my muslim friends "Selamat Hari Raya" and drive safe if you are balik kampung :)
Saturday, October 06, 2007
Communication
I'm not sure is it the communication break down or is the person changed...we seem not talking as much as previously. Sometimes I do have lots of things wanna share but no chance at all. I'm not sure why and what is happening. Communication is important but also need efforts on it. May be now is not the right timing. I'm not the right one. I wish I can do something to make it better. But I can't...should take it easy and let it be? I wish I can do so...let's pray.
One thing to me is no matter how busy I am and if I'm willing to spend time on something or some person I will make the time. I will put efforts on it. I have hope to see a result. How about u?
One thing to me is no matter how busy I am and if I'm willing to spend time on something or some person I will make the time. I will put efforts on it. I have hope to see a result. How about u?
Monday, October 01, 2007
Gym Classes
Yesterday was my last day for Hartamas Jam class. This is my first own class. It started since May and it can't last long. Sad for the end but is good also to let go. I don't get encouragement from the class...Anyway it is expected.
I still have other classes to maintain...and some new one coming. I don't want to give up all my efforts even I know is hard for me. But will try. Now what I need to do is concentrate on my career on both work and gym. Others may be think later. May be one day I can have a changed and do what I wish to do. Will work on it. I don't want let others affect it.
Right now only have 2 permanent classes and both Wave - Wed 8pm Taipan and Fri 7:30pm Jaya33. But I donno how long I can maintain...look like it is not doing good also. Wave reminded me someone that always supported the class. Without this person it seems no meaning anymore.
By end of this month will have a permanent Jam slot on Wed 9:10pm Taipan. And when TF Pavilion opened I will have Sat Jam class as well. I hope I can get more classes. So I can make myself more busy and no time to think something else. I need encouragement which I've lost it right now. I need the energy I've got it from someone but no longer at the moment. Pick up myself bah.
I still have other classes to maintain...and some new one coming. I don't want to give up all my efforts even I know is hard for me. But will try. Now what I need to do is concentrate on my career on both work and gym. Others may be think later. May be one day I can have a changed and do what I wish to do. Will work on it. I don't want let others affect it.
Right now only have 2 permanent classes and both Wave - Wed 8pm Taipan and Fri 7:30pm Jaya33. But I donno how long I can maintain...look like it is not doing good also. Wave reminded me someone that always supported the class. Without this person it seems no meaning anymore.
By end of this month will have a permanent Jam slot on Wed 9:10pm Taipan. And when TF Pavilion opened I will have Sat Jam class as well. I hope I can get more classes. So I can make myself more busy and no time to think something else. I need encouragement which I've lost it right now. I need the energy I've got it from someone but no longer at the moment. Pick up myself bah.
No Regret
I have no regret of what I've done so far. To me to express myself is nothing wrong. I will do what I like to do. I will say what I wish to say. May be wrong is my expectation is high and when things not as what you plan, what you wish to see made you disappointed. Is like you have hope but it is suddenly gone. Very sad. I'm sad and heartache seeing a beautiful thing going well but out of sudden it just ended without reasons. Do I still have hope to make it right? Can it be done? Never try never know. But just need a chance for it. Lots of things that we can't control. What you see it now may not same at later. It's life. Start questioning why is it must be like this? Why can't we just happy facing what we are facing now and be brave to overcome it? I always wish I can just do anything I wish to happily without thinking of other problems. Life forced you can't do so. There is always a word "move on" to everyone when things not as what you think. Is it move on can help? I don't know...just keep it as memories may be. There is still hope may be. No one knows....
No regret to yourself...be happy of what you had...hoping there it is better in front of you...
No regret to yourself...be happy of what you had...hoping there it is better in front of you...
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Out of One's Mind 神不守舍
These few days always out of mind especially today. May be cause by down mood. Can't even eat much, can't sleep well, can't concentrate, can't even study my exam coming soon next week. The worst one is I don't even know I'm driving...and forgotten lock my car when go to do class...but lucky nothing happened. I felt everything bad to me...even the cheque deposit machine. The cheque stucked, then do drop cheque manually and the machine given problem also. Why must be like this? When you are not in good condition everything to you are bad as well??? So unfair.
There are many things happened to me lately. Not a good one. Made me depressed. No way out. Hope I can find an escape to get myself a breath. I just need a friend who can talk to me. A friend that will not walk away from me. I have friends...but true friends not many. Those who can really talk to you...listen to you...really really hard to find. Thanks to my gal friends from far even willing talk to me and listen to me....compare to those near me. sad. Only can trust is my close girls friends instead any guy around me. No one can be trusted. No one can believed. I'm easily fall and get hurt...I don't want anymore. Be tough and independent bah. No hope.
There are many things happened to me lately. Not a good one. Made me depressed. No way out. Hope I can find an escape to get myself a breath. I just need a friend who can talk to me. A friend that will not walk away from me. I have friends...but true friends not many. Those who can really talk to you...listen to you...really really hard to find. Thanks to my gal friends from far even willing talk to me and listen to me....compare to those near me. sad. Only can trust is my close girls friends instead any guy around me. No one can be trusted. No one can believed. I'm easily fall and get hurt...I don't want anymore. Be tough and independent bah. No hope.
Scared
I'm scared...I'm not doing good in everything...even not capable to move on. I can't concentrate. I'm lost. I don't know where should I go from here.
Ignore my previous post of what I thought.
Ignore my previous post of what I thought.
Saturday, September 22, 2007
Sis R.O.M.
Today is my 3rd sis register of marriage. We went to Brickfield chinese temple. First time been there and the place better than Tian Hou Gong. Not so crowded with couples. It started with praying. Chanted by monk. Then only proceed to register. The registration took about half an hour. The person in charged talk a lot. When my sis announced as married I felt emotional. First happy for her...at last after so many years she finally got married. Now left me alone still single among the siblings. I also felt a little sad about myself...how I wish I can get married and have a family soon also....
After all the process including photos sessions (will post the photos later when I got it from others) then we all adjourned to One World Hotel Cinnamon Coffee House for buffet lunch...it is 68++ per person and buy 3 free 1 with Amex card. Love the settings...taken some pics, will upload later and who u guys... Not bad la the food...still acceptable. Nice place to hang around and enjoy the food. Quite a big restaurant.
My feeling now - need someone besides me, love me, supports me....and I need faith with someone
At the moment misses someone...expecting something but it doesn't happen. Was wondering what is happening...am I wrong? When you have hope but it is gone now what will you feel? What can I do? Wait and do nothing? Or confront? I really donno... :(
After all the process including photos sessions (will post the photos later when I got it from others) then we all adjourned to One World Hotel Cinnamon Coffee House for buffet lunch...it is 68++ per person and buy 3 free 1 with Amex card. Love the settings...taken some pics, will upload later and who u guys... Not bad la the food...still acceptable. Nice place to hang around and enjoy the food. Quite a big restaurant.
My feeling now - need someone besides me, love me, supports me....and I need faith with someone
At the moment misses someone...expecting something but it doesn't happen. Was wondering what is happening...am I wrong? When you have hope but it is gone now what will you feel? What can I do? Wait and do nothing? Or confront? I really donno... :(
Thursday, September 20, 2007
TF Q3 Launch @ Jaya33
As always after the launch everyone gather together to take a group picture!! Nice...More photos go to hyperhex.
That day we also celebrated barney's birthday and we had a cute purple barney jelly cake. yum yum.
Team Luncheon
We had a luncheon for our manager birthday and also for her LOA for 4 months. The one in black jacket is my manager but now she left and another manager temporary replacing her. Here are some of the colleagues all under her from different unit but still under the same department. Out department head is the front row second from right.
IBM Family Dinner
18 Aug 2007
Venue: One World Hotel Grand Ballroom
Dress code: Black Tie
I'm lucky that can join the dinner cos I heard it is only held once every 2 years. Was prepared for the dinner. Bought new dress, made my hair and makeup :p. But I was tired on that day, went Fanny's ROM then rushed to have hair do and makeup appointment. It's whole day out and till the night I look tired already. First time to see so many people attend such annual dinner.
While waiting time to enter the seats everyone standing outside chit chatting, take photos and have drinks and snacks.
The food so so. Quite boring night. Not many programs. The most interesting part is "Bian Lian" change faces by Chinese. Good show.
We had lucky draw but I have no luck. The grand prize is 42" plasma TV.
On left is outside the ballroom area while waiting time to go in. A lot of people and no one I know. Right is the ballroom itself. Think got hundreds tables. But not all full with people. I sat with other team people and my team colleagues sat separately and only 4 of them in one table. Wasted. Some registered but not appear.
Left: My other same team colleagues. Right: Lily & me...one of the colleague from other team who can talk and close to me.
The food on that night.
Venue: One World Hotel Grand Ballroom
Dress code: Black Tie
I'm lucky that can join the dinner cos I heard it is only held once every 2 years. Was prepared for the dinner. Bought new dress, made my hair and makeup :p. But I was tired on that day, went Fanny's ROM then rushed to have hair do and makeup appointment. It's whole day out and till the night I look tired already. First time to see so many people attend such annual dinner.
While waiting time to enter the seats everyone standing outside chit chatting, take photos and have drinks and snacks.
The food so so. Quite boring night. Not many programs. The most interesting part is "Bian Lian" change faces by Chinese. Good show.
We had lucky draw but I have no luck. The grand prize is 42" plasma TV.
On left is outside the ballroom area while waiting time to go in. A lot of people and no one I know. Right is the ballroom itself. Think got hundreds tables. But not all full with people. I sat with other team people and my team colleagues sat separately and only 4 of them in one table. Wasted. Some registered but not appear.
Left: My other same team colleagues. Right: Lily & me...one of the colleague from other team who can talk and close to me.
The food on that night.
Fanny's ROM
18 Aug 2007
CONGRATULATIONS FANNY!!!
yeah I know it is so late only post this up. It's been a month ago. Don't care. I still want to put it here and take it out from my outstanding list for blogging :p.
Tribute this entry to my good friend - Fanny!
Really happy for her and knowing she is happily with her new wed life. ;)
Lovely Fanny & Handsome Dae :D
All gals - the happiest is fanny lor
CONGRATULATIONS FANNY!!!
yeah I know it is so late only post this up. It's been a month ago. Don't care. I still want to put it here and take it out from my outstanding list for blogging :p.
Tribute this entry to my good friend - Fanny!
Really happy for her and knowing she is happily with her new wed life. ;)
Lovely Fanny & Handsome Dae :D
All gals - the happiest is fanny lor
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Creative Cupcakes
Wanted to blog about this since long time ago but always forget. Since today a friend reminded then I think I should promote a bit. This is cupcakes custom made upon your request. I find it is interesting, nice, creative, colorful and attracted me to find out more. The cupcake taste also not bad. It is quite special if you make this for birthday cake or special occasion. Interested to check out the site? They have more designs. Check this Shalia's Treats.
Alive Again!!
Yay!! I got internet connection again. This time not any broadband provider. I use a 4G technology using iBurst device. This allows you to have mobility network. You can connect internet anywhere anytime. I subscribe the package for one user using USB connection. Tested the speed can up to 900kbps. super fast. Hope the connection improve later on at my area so I get more stable connection. Interested? check out IZZI. I am using this iZZiyou.
Sunday, September 02, 2007
Can't Live Without It
My house broadband been down for almost a week. Cause me a lot troubles. I can't get in touch with my friends, can't update blog here, can't work at home etc...
Bored!!! Think I'm too dependent on internet....I really need it....not sure when it will resume. I doubt. I hate my house area which doesn't have much choices of broadband provider :(
Bored!!! Think I'm too dependent on internet....I really need it....not sure when it will resume. I doubt. I hate my house area which doesn't have much choices of broadband provider :(
Sunday, August 19, 2007
My MOod
Now my situation now is....
stress stress stress...tired...lazy...demotivated...
What can I do?
stress stress stress...tired...lazy...demotivated...
What can I do?
TF Jaya33 Grand Opening
16 Aug 2007
Went for the press conference for opening new TF branch - Jaya33. Suppose I was in the demo team but I was dropped from it. I am ok with it but just upset with someone that never thought of others feeling of what he has done. Anyway I was on MC that day but I still go to check out mainly Capoeira performance. Never regret I went even I was not that feeling well (I was drowsy and felt floating the whole day..think effect from medicine). Great performance they had as well as Jam chicks but not the dude. I'm glad to meet TF boss and his wife. The wife so damn cun...tall...nice body figure...pretty...and friendly smile :)...The boss also smart and handsome. Nice couple. Went check out the spa and swimming pool as well. Cool! Must try it one day...got manicure pedicure service some more. donno instructor got discount not :p
After the event went coffee bean yum char as usual...then continue makan from the buffet TF provided. hehe do nothing but can eat for free :p paiseh. Same night I gotta teach jam at Taipan. So wanted to have someone replace...but too bad...no one. Have to do it my own. Lucky I managed to teach one whole class...after sweat made me feel better.
2 GXCs, Jam demo team and Capoeira demo team plus me :D (so salah I'm in the pic)
Su yee was asking why we all jammers like to take photos...hiak...diva mar :p
3 girls with ethan
Others photos Click Here
Went for the press conference for opening new TF branch - Jaya33. Suppose I was in the demo team but I was dropped from it. I am ok with it but just upset with someone that never thought of others feeling of what he has done. Anyway I was on MC that day but I still go to check out mainly Capoeira performance. Never regret I went even I was not that feeling well (I was drowsy and felt floating the whole day..think effect from medicine). Great performance they had as well as Jam chicks but not the dude. I'm glad to meet TF boss and his wife. The wife so damn cun...tall...nice body figure...pretty...and friendly smile :)...The boss also smart and handsome. Nice couple. Went check out the spa and swimming pool as well. Cool! Must try it one day...got manicure pedicure service some more. donno instructor got discount not :p
After the event went coffee bean yum char as usual...then continue makan from the buffet TF provided. hehe do nothing but can eat for free :p paiseh. Same night I gotta teach jam at Taipan. So wanted to have someone replace...but too bad...no one. Have to do it my own. Lucky I managed to teach one whole class...after sweat made me feel better.
2 GXCs, Jam demo team and Capoeira demo team plus me :D (so salah I'm in the pic)
Su yee was asking why we all jammers like to take photos...hiak...diva mar :p
3 girls with ethan
Others photos Click Here
Q3 LM Workshop 07
12 August 2007 is Q3 Les Mills Workshop again....this round more fun. I don't need to drive especially hehe. Car pool with Clement and Raymond. We had extremely expensive breakfast at Dome. Reason I got RM50 voucher and Raymond will pay the rest :D. We were so glam taking pics here n there. Ate a lot for breakfast also. Suffer later *bleh*
This round just joined Body Step and Body Jam. Step were super athletic..die die...Jam lagi high cardio...die die again! This round I only able to attend 1 tuition for step and jam. All time crashed with classes or annual dinner :( tension!! only 1 tuition not enough for me to remember chory and work on techniques. I gotta find someone practice with me!! who volunteer?
Grabbed this photo from hyperhex...I find it cool...luv it...look like real dvd pack cover...good job Jon.
As usual jammers sure take photos one la...here are some especially with Tracy and also Thania Guest from Perth. Both of them awesome!
Here some more photos by Jon for the whole workshop....click here
This round just joined Body Step and Body Jam. Step were super athletic..die die...Jam lagi high cardio...die die again! This round I only able to attend 1 tuition for step and jam. All time crashed with classes or annual dinner :( tension!! only 1 tuition not enough for me to remember chory and work on techniques. I gotta find someone practice with me!! who volunteer?
Grabbed this photo from hyperhex...I find it cool...luv it...look like real dvd pack cover...good job Jon.
As usual jammers sure take photos one la...here are some especially with Tracy and also Thania Guest from Perth. Both of them awesome!
Time to learn choreography and difficult techniques again! tension...stress...tired...wat else?
Here some more photos by Jon for the whole workshop....click here
