Hospitalize Again

Just heard from my sis mum admitted to hospital again due to pass motion with blood. Have to stay in hospital for checkup to see what's wrong. Sis also told me mum is weak. Can't do chemo for these few days yet. Wish my mum getting better. Wish to see her but these few days tight up with things. It doesn't seem smooth days for me lately. Trying be strong...be positive.

Last week when I was in wedding dinner one of my friend ask me how many months I didn't go back see my mum. i just told I went back a week before over the weekend. I told my friend mum in hospital. Then he said why am I still so happy. Well, what can I say? I just told him trying to be positive. I am trying hard not to think too much on such bad things. Without thought of it I won't be sad. Because I know once I think I will cry no matter what. I don't want so. So I try don't think about it, stay happy. Tak kan want me show my sad face all thee time to my friends? especially in ppl's wedding? that's not good and will affect others. Some said see me like happy always. Really? When I'm sad no one sees only. And try to hide myself and don't let anyone knows. However sometimes when emotional hits, I can't hide anymore and just express out everything.

I know this happened will offended anyone. Accept my apologies on my fault with no intention. I wish I can be happy and emotion-less all the time. That will be good.

Today not feeling well. Unable get replacement and have to do the class later. I wish someone can help so I can take a rest. And also wish to go hospital see mum. I know next 2 days won't have time....

Guide to Unlock & Jailbreak iPhone 2.2 (2G) using QuickPwn (Windows)

Pre-requisite:

#1: Make sure you have upgraded to iTunes version 8.0.2 and backup your iPhone data by synchronizing it with iTunes 8.0.2. See instruction here on how to backup your iPhone.

#2: Download QuickPwn 2.2, Bootloader 3.9, Bootloader 4.6 and iPhone 2G firmware 2.2. Save them all in the same folder. Extract/unzip QuickPwn22.zip. Make sure you have all the files in place before continue.

#3: You need to install the .NET framework on your PC to run QuickPwn 2.2

Installing iPhone 2.2 firmware via iTunes 8.0.2

Step 1: Just connect your iPhone to your computer via USB cable and launch iTunes. Select your iPhone in iTunes. You might see all information about you iPhone and the button “Upgrade” and “Restore” appear in iTunes window.

Step 2: Hold the “SHIFT” key and click the “Restore” button simultaneously. The iTunes file dialog will pop up for you to select the firmware file. Locate the “iPhone1,1_2.2_5G77_Restore.ipsw” that you have downloaded in previous step and click “Open”.

 

Step 3: iTunes will then restore your iPhone with firmware 2.2 automatically. Keep your iPhone connected, don’t touch anything and wait until the process complete.

  

Unlock Jailbreak using QuickPwn 2.2

Step 1: Your iPhone should completely restore to firmware 2.2. But it’s still locked right now.

  

Step 2: Launch QuickPwn 2.2 to start jailbreak & unlock. Make sure your iPhone connect via USB cable and then click blue button to proceed.

  

  

Step 3: You are required to provide the firmware 2.2 IPSW file. Click “Browse” button to locate the “iPhone1,1_2.2_5G77_Restore.ipsw” were you had downloaded in Step 2. You should see a big tick if your firmware file is correct. Then click blue arrow button to proceed.

  

Step 4: You are required to configure the settings for QuickPwn. Normally, you could mark all checkboxes (i.e. Add Cydia, add installer, Replace boot logo & unlock iPhone). If you would like to keep the Apple logo already in your iPhone, just left “Replace boot logo” unmarked. Click blue arrow button to proceed.

  

Step 5: Locate the bootloader 3.9 and 4.6 files that you have downloaded at Step 2 by clicking “Browse” button. QuickPwn will show a big tick if they are correct. Then click blue arrow button to proceed.

  

Step 6: Make sure your iPhone should still be connected with USB cable. QuickPwn requests you to confirm it once again before unlock & jailbreak process will begin. If you’re ready, click blue arrow button to proceed.

  

Step 7: QuickPwn automatically puts the iPhone into recovery mode. After that, you’ll be instructed to hold Home button for 5 seconds. Then hold Home and Power buttons together for 10 seconds. Next, release Power button and continue to hold Home button until your iPhone is in DFU mode (QuickPwn will inform you automatically when you’re in DFU mode).

  

Step 8: During unlocking & jailbreaking process, your iPhone screen shows downloading jailbreak data and flashing NOR progress. What you have to do just keep waiting and don’t touch anything to your iPhone.

  

  

Step 9: QuickPwn will let you know the jailbreak process is successful. Your iPhone will be restarted and automatically launch BootNeuter to perform unlock. This process will take 3-5 minutes to complete. Just wait until the process been done and your iPhone will be rebooted again.

  

Step 10: Now unlocking & jailbreaking process has complete with iPhone firmware 2.2 Finally, sync back your iPhone to restore your backups data with iTunes 8.0.2.

Original source from http://rdsbc.wordpress.com/2008/11/28/guide-to-unlock-jailbreak-iphone-22-2g-using-quickpwn-windows/

Not My Day

Today is really not my day. These few days seem everything not smooth and things happened badly on me. May be cause by exhausted over the weekend until no rest well, plus works, plus pressures to learn new release, whole person become emotional. I admit whenever I do not rest well I will be very emotional. Especially last night slept less than 4 hours. Today whole day like floating...can't even concentrate.

I was drag myself to work, late in work due to doing some banking stuffs need to be done by today. Usually I will do it much earlier but donno why this time last minute. Probably too busy and no mood of doing anything. Due to sleepless night, whole person became so dull for the day. Plus something happened even make my day gloomy. It happened unexpectedly. But I can't do anything if not given a chance to correct it. No matter what it is, things happened and accept it.

One bad thing not enough...once it happened it happened twice a day. Thought of going home early but the sky not giving me the chance. It rained during off work hour (or may be earlier which I don't notice). Until whole KL has an extremely bad traffic jam. I left before 6:30pm but reach home only abt 9pm. Think this is my longest traffice jam I had ever since working in KL. Another bad thing is my car's aircond giving me problem. It comes out hot air instead cold air. I have no choice just open windows without aircond and stucked in the jam for hours. Lucky a little it is rainy day and not that hot. At least some cool air from outside.

It was exhausted, emotional, gloomy day for me. I hope to have a break forget all these. May be is time to let go for now. I've been sleeping late lately, getting tired even worst than previous. Not in a mood lately. Physically and mentally worries cause all the problems.

BodyJam 47

BODYJAM 47 Sizzler

BODYJAM 47 is packed with the freshest dance moves, the hottest music and - wait for it - the next revolution in Les Mills' BODYJAM! That's right, in this release we've dropped complexity to an all-time low AND introduced advanced options of the choreography which can be added as you please. This release has two levels of complexity so you can tailor you BODYJAM experience to suit your members!

On this DVD you'll see two options - BODYJAM and BODYJAM +. Both versions use the same music, styles of movement and BODYJAM experience but one has a lower complexity option. We're giving you the best of both worlds and you choose what you use!

BODYJAM 47 also brings back Dance4Life - the organization that unites young people to push back HIV and AIDS. So get in behind this fantastic cause by launching a full-on fundraising effort with this release.

And you'll love the brand new Christmas bonus Groove Down. When December rolls around this year, you'll have the hippest Christmas theme in your club with BODYJAM 47.

So be ready to get down BODYJAM styles with Busta Rhymes, Usher, The Ting Tings and The Pussycat Dolls. Yeah!

Choreographed: Gandalf Archer
Presented: Gandalf Archer / Rachael Cohen / Asa Fornander

BODYJAM 47 Track Listing:

01. Warmup:
Jesse Voorn feat. ZoeXenia - See Me

02. Isolations:
Minikin feat. G - Beat Goes On

03. Hip Hop:
Busta Rhymes - Don't Touch Me (Throw Da Water On 'Em) (Clean Version)

04. Hip Hop:
Flo Rida feat. Will.I.Am - In The Ayer

05. Hip Hop:
Flo Rida feat. T-Pain - Low (Travis Barker Remix)

06. Samba De Janeiro:
Sergio Mendes feat. Ledisi - Waters of March (Album Version)

07. Samba De Janeiro:
Sergio Mendes feat. Ledisi - Waters of March (Benny Benassi Remix)

08. Samba De Janeiro:
R.I.O - De Janeiro

09. Recovery:
Usher - This Ain't Sex

10. Freakin' Fakin' House:
Solange - I Decided - Part 2 (Freemasons Club Mix)

11. Freakin' Fakin' House:
The Ting Tings - Shut Up and Let Me Go (Tocadisco Love The Old School Mix)

12. Freakin' Fakin' House:
David Guetta & Chris Willis vs Tocadisco - Tomorrow Can Wait (Tocadisco Evilmix)

13. Groove Down:
Lil Wayne feat. Static Major - Lollipop

14. Bonus Track - Groove Down:
The Pussycat Dolls - Santa Baby

You can even download the tracks from here! Cool kan?

Zarina, cepat download the songs and listen first and prepare for the training :)

Can't wait trying out the new BodyJam 47. Soon...this coming Saturday and Sunday can do it! It has 2 level of choreography. One less complexity one as usual complex. More things to learn and challenging but I like. Challenge mar. And this time got xmas bonus track! hurray...so far only got 1 xmas track in bodyjam 35 and after so long now only got another one. So we have play this during xmas time lor! some more the song from PCD.

Busy Weekend Ahead

This weekend is a long weekend because Monday is holiday. But I will forsee to have busy busy weekend lor. Start on Saturday it is Les Mills quarterly workshop lor...Q4 last one for the year. so fast hoh. felt tat previous workshop just over. It will be whole day this round. Why? BS is at 1+pm and BJ is at 5+pm...have to stay super long time there!!! duh. After workshop as usual dinner and home with exhausted body lor. Next day, sunday have to be at gym early! 9:30am got BJ master class leh. must go. After that my own class. aiyoyo...so tired leh. Then at night is my friend's wedding dinner. On Monday is holiday suppose people will rest but I am not. I have back to back classes in afternoon. wahhahaa thats how my long weekend plan. Sure crazy tiring....how about yours?

三十女人抗衰老五大习惯

三十对于女人而言，并非一个可以轻松面对的年龄。三十岁的女人，面临着极大的工作压力和生活压力，这些压力过大，会使其体内产生自由基，从而造成衰老。作为三十的女人，要如何远离衰老呢？首先，你需要的就是做到以下的五大抗老习惯。 

抗老习惯一：坚持科学合理膳食

对于抗衰老而言，科学合理的膳食可以从内部改善你的肌肤和身体状况，让你更年轻，更有活力。


1、多食新鲜蔬菜和水果：新鲜蔬菜和水果中富含多种维生素和微量元素，非常是可及时清除导致衰老的自由基的维生素E和

2、补钙：天天坚持喝一杯牛奶，既能增强体质又能补钙

3、多喝白开水：水是人体必需营养素之一，天天喝1-2升水，既可保持身体活力又能使皮肤嫩润

4、吃好早餐：建议早餐适当食用含优质蛋白质的食品，不要拒绝吃鸡蛋，早餐最好吃一枚鸡蛋

抗老习惯二：保证充足睡眠

三十的女人，或许你的工作很繁忙，或许你的家务事似乎永远也忙不完，但是，你要学会调整自己的时间分配，让自己每天都有充足的时间来休息。因为，充足的睡眠可消除疲惫、恢复体力、减少脸部皱纹。并且，保证充足的睡眠可以预防许多肌肤问题，诸如黑眼圈、眼袋、肌肤粗糙等等，所谓美容觉的意义和功效也就在于此。因此，要保证年轻美丽，睡眠一定要充足。

抗老习惯三：积极进行体育锻炼

女性对于运 动，似乎天生就不像男性那样热衷，不过，体育锻炼对于保持你的年轻面貌有着十分重要的作用。户外锻炼不仅可以强健体魄，让身体的免疫力增加，并可以激活身 体细胞，舒缓压力，抗击衰老。而且，还能预防身体发福。因此，你应该天天坚持2小时体育锻炼，让自己更有青春的活力和朝气。

抗老习惯四：保持美好心情

要想肌肤好，好心情是十分重要的；要想保持年轻，好心情更是必不可少。总是心情低沉的人，最容易变老。因而，要学会保持自己的好心情。好心情的保持，首先就要懂得如何保持心态平衡和乐观开朗，这样可最大限度地调动体内激素，既可提高机体免疫力又能延缓衰老。

抗老习惯五：及时排除体内毒素

体内毒素沉积，肌肤自然容易出问题，人也容易变老。要年轻，就要及时排除体内毒素。


1、清除肺内毒素：天天清晨及晚上睡觉前，到室外空气清新处，做深呼吸运动

2、清除血液内毒素：人体内自由基如不能及时排出就会对正常细胞产生破坏导致衰老，多食含抗氧化剂的食物可及时清除血液内自由基；血液中天天都会产生各种垃圾，如不及时清除，不仅会加快机体衰老，还会导致高血脂、高血压。富含维生素E和血管清道夫DHA的博力美营养冲剂可帮你及时清除体内自由基及血液中的各类毒素。

3、清除肠道内毒素：粪便中毒素较多，部分是我们日常吃进去的垃圾食品，部分是肠道内产生的垃圾，保持大便通畅既可排毒也能养颜。

King Crab & Happy Hour

Last night suppose planned to go for happy hour only after work. But in the afternoon Nat told me plan changed. We go for dinner with her mum and niece and newphews. And dinner at King Crab wor...sure go la :p Long time no crabby and feel like having it also. I left work at 6pm but only reach at 7:15pm. Long traffic jam all the way from KL to Kelana! By the time I reached they all started eating liao...but lucky they left me some food and still got alot on the table! I was surprised 5 women adults including me and 3 kids can have 8 dishes! geng! But I like to have more dishes when a group of friends having together. It is enjoying having more varieties of food with nice people :) First time met Grace's son and daughter and mum. When I arrived they seem already full. OK cut short and show you guys some pics that I still managed to take lar...but before that I want to thank to Grace, Nat and Wendy invited me for the dinner. especially to Wendy buying all the time *hugs*

Indonesia/Jakarta Crab with sweet and sour sauce...very big big size and lots of meat. I was shocked knowing 1 piece RM120. We ordered 2 pieces :p

 

I can only see fish tail when I'm there....hahaha... I like fish especially steam one

  

ginger deer meat I think...this one not bad

  

 I think below is the snail meat...we call it "luo" in chinese

  

Lai Liu Har (a kind of prawn) but i donno what it calls in english. must cut the shell only able to eat the meat. fresh but the cooking style not tat nice.

  

fried salted egg squid. I like oh. especially with salted egg

  

There are few dishes already gone when I'm there so din manage to take pic la. But I ate it from what they reserved for me. First time to this restaurant. Din know their service so good. Help you cut away the prawn's shell, help you break the crab's shell, keep changing dirty plates etc. I think may be less people that time gua :D Special highlight from my colleague about this restaurant...must visit the toilet. if not u will regret!....u guys guess what so special with the toilet la kekeke ... I went and say "hmmmmm....ok"....

After dinner Nat said continue our plan for happy hour. finished dinner at 8pm and think still early then ok la. We were planned go to Cafe Flam but.....until I reached there only realized no longer has Cafe Flam lor!! so OUTDATED!!! okok admit la...long time no drinking is like this one la. what new what old clubs also donno liao. it changed to funny name as COCO BANANA...not nice. it seems this one took over most of the previous clubs there...including ex Q bar. But then when both of us step in one the the bar area....wah! so quiet one!! no one inside leh. alo...it is happy hour wor...why no people one? we were like...errrr ...shall we change other place? then step out and then go outside sofas area and still not many people! Fine...then we sat down at bar area which has no bar tender at all! we ordered one jug of beer cos still happy hour and is cheap. But then I feel like having cocktail then mar ask for cocktail menu. End up they gave me nonsense menu none of the listed names are cocktail menu! after they trying to dig out whatevere they have and pass me torn, old, lousy printed Bar Flam drink's menu! aiyerrrr so lousy! Later we want to order red wine and know what they told us? NO RED WINE...WHATEVER WINES ALSO DON'T HAVE!!! lousy!!! oh forget to mention the jug of beer said is Carlsberg but it tastes like shit...no taste at all and not like a beer also! Totally disappointed for this place and I just wish to home as early as I can.

Last night dinner was superb good but happy hour was superb lousy! ahahha so contrast. But I had free drinks so is ok la. Recently I just feel like get myself drunk and stop thinking and wish one day I can say whatever I wanted to say to someone for long long time....sob sob

Talk about food...I got a friend gave me this food and recipe website for me. Very good reference and wish one day I have time to cook the dishes. I wish to have a nice kitchen in my new house and enjoy cooking then :)...check out the site yah.

http://www.rasamalaysia.com/

Recently I had too much food...get rounded liao :(( wah wah wah....must start diet again...no lunch no dinner. may be mood no good and depress by having food to cheer myself recently...uncontrollable. oh noooooo must control now....must must must!!! mind me be so self conscious k...I have to :S

Not in Mood!

I am very moody and emotional today. All went wrong to me! I hate messy stuffs pushed to me. I hate things not in organize. I hate feeling alone of doing all things. I hate being transparent to someone. I hate being ignored by someone. I hate no response from someone!! Leave me alone

Back to Normal

yippie, my face black black freckles dropped off liao. So now back to normal...no more big patch of dark spots! yahooo....and find that those pigmented area lighter a bit compare to last time. this round the LHE treatment increase power and more came out. good good! 1 more time to go and see if will get even lighter. i think need to increase even more power ... wahhh will be suffer. pain pain... but no choice lor. wan leng leng don wan meng (life). And also thanks to EB helps to reduce my fine lines around my eyes area! my eyes dark circles lighter and lesser fine lines leh. What I can see lah. It can be better...may be I used wrongly or the products not powerful enough or need longer period to see much better result :D ....also need to sleep on time regularly and sleep more!!! I am trying HARD lah. Time to do detox...but with detox I can't exercise which I cant skip. how leh??

Tonight going for King Crab!! can't wait :p

Cleared BS in FF

Phew...relief now. I was too nervous for clearance last night but at last it is over! yay! Glad that I made it. Cleared to teach but just do for replacement la. Still got many to be improved and assessment again in 2-3 months down the road to get a permanent class. But it is good enough lor. I don't expect to have permanent class due to my working tight schedule. Just do for replacement classes for time being will do.

Before the class starts I was too nervous till I gotta tell myself deep breath in and out and calm down. When on stage and see lots of members prepared their board and looking at me like stranger doesn't help at all! Well, I am trying to be cool and do what I can do. Luckily I am used to be on stage but not that infront of so many people and new faces. In my heart I just say die die go for it la! don't care liao. Once music starts I am concentrating of doing it and want it be a good class. So forget about others including am doing assessment! kakaka...the members are good leh...so regular and they are supportive. Thanks to them help me through out the class. I was so relief when the class ended!

Still many things to do even after the clearance. Will try my best to be a better BS instructor. Thanks for the clearance chance and comments. I'll work on it.

Interested?

Guys, I am helping the seller to gather orders here because I'm one of the buyer to get this palette but have to wait till orders up to 10 then only am able to get it. If you are interested do let me know or contact the seller directly. My friend just bought it and say nice palette and it is pigmented.

88 Color Eyes Shadow Palette - RM70

http://skindeco.blogspot.com/2008/06/88-color-eyeshadow-palette.html

http://skindeco.blogspot.com/2008/10/labelling-88-and-80-color-palettes.html

http://skindeco.blogspot.com

Eternal Beauty

It is funny have such comments - hey, you slim down alot leh. But frankly, during siem reap trip ate a lot and I'm sure I gain weights. Some more stopped gym more than 1 week. Only last week and this week go more often almost everyday to gain back stamina. It is really funny how come people see the other way round? Not this time got such comment. I faced this many years ago also after trip. Usually after trip people sure see you gain weights but my case like different story. haha. Oh talk about ppl commented my face look slimmer, and yes! I do find it too. Thanks to EB...the Eternal Beauty device I am using everyday twice! I used it to concentrate on my face first. It can use on body. For beauty lah...slimming lah :)

 

4 Technologies in 1 Revolutionary Device

Eternal Beauty is an integrated health & beauty massager which harmonises the beauty of nature with science by using naturally-occurring materials to provide salon-quality beauty, slimming and health benefits at an affordable price.

Eternal Beauty is an award winning invention which can naturally emit Far Infrared Rays, Anion and Germanium with Ultrasound capabilities. The massager head, made of Natural Stone, allows for safe use even on the most sensitive skin.

Among the many benefits of this portable hand-held device are reducing wrinkles, increasing skin elasticity, pore-refining, breaking down of cellulite and brightening skin. 

I'm happy using it now :) hopefully will see significantly result very soon :D

Be Grateful

You should be grateful when your family members still healthy. Appreciate when you have it. Appreciate your family whenever wherever you can. Cherish the times together with your family. No matter what they are important, part of your life, they always be with you anytime. Be grateful you have friends as well. Remember, cherish everyone besides you. Love all around to everyone if you can. Appreciate someone who loves you. Sometimes a friend may not be with you or will not see each other but remember they will always remember you and support you from far. Even those far apart for long time they still your friends and family. You will more grateful when you meet them again. I used to have a noisy family. All gather together every weekend spend time together. I had a happening family has many gatherings and things to talk. But things will changed. It's getting quiet and everyone left. Leave a quiet home and everyone are busy to be home. I know how it feels esp my mum stay alone in the house. It is not a good feeling. It will not be the same as last time. So be grateful what you have now. For those still have family spend together should more grateful. I am grateful I still have a bunch of friends that care and spend time together although I dont have family as used to be. So cheer up =)

This year seems that not a good year to most of people around me. It is like a sick year. My mum has cancer, my bro-in-law's father is hemiplegia (half body cant move), my bro-in-law has diabetes, my aunty critical sick warded in hospital. Besides my families, my friends's family as well, Raymond's mum is nephrosis (kidney sickness), larry has weird sickness warded in hospital many times and now half lost of the eye sights, and some of the friends always get sick and in hospital...how come so many bad things happened? I wish this year goes fast and coming year everyone healthier and better!

Think Positively

I am trying to think positively on things happen around me. Try not to think about the worst will happened and stay happy and be strong. However sometimes when really think of it I'll get sad and helpless. Just do what I can do. Decided to go back today to visit mum. She is warded and needs us be with her. I skip my class today. Think will be whole day in hospital. I wish mum gets better...god bless. Strong and Positive k.

Mum in Bad Condition

2 days ago sister told me mum went thru chemo again. Few days earlier she went for CT scan and the result told that her tumor in liver growing bigger (mum did complain the tummy getting hard but sis doesnt tell her the tumor grown) and the blood cell from 80+ up till 1488...thats alot leh!!! She also said feel pain and lately she is much weaker. After the chemo she cant pass motion and today admit to hospital again. This happened once last time after her chemo as well. See her awarded very suffer leh :( Don't know why her condition getting bad. Her condition getting worst since my sis left to Perth. And also may be no one accompany her at home part of the reason she is not happy and bored. So now my sis coming back tomorrow and take care of her for time being. I wish can take care but I don't have the capability. I am working in KL and busy teaching classes. Don't have much time go home. Feel so bad. Is like wanted to do but unable to do it. Tomorrow I'll go hospital visit mum after class. Hope she is alright. Let's pray.

FF Axis

Went to FF Axis for the Hip Hop Gangsta theme class. The feeling is different compare to last time I was still member of FF and very active in Axis branch with a bunch of friends crazily join bodyjam together. Miss those days. May be due to I left FF for very long time...feel strange when I got back there. Totally different feeling. Donno how to describe it but just uncomfortable. May be don't have my friends around, or just few of them which I know. Even the dance studio also different. I was standing last row and thru out the tracks got squeezed to the back wall till can't move at all. Meaning cant enjoy lah! used to have much dance space in TF mar. Some more the aircond spoiled for 2 weeks! gosh...damn hot leh. I am start worrying and panic-ing for my BS clearance next monday at same place! How can I survive without aircond and teach 1 whole class? Scare difficult to breath and lower down my stamina :S....wish me luck

It Launches Soon!

I can't wait for it to launch soon in December! If nothing goes wrong I'll be getting it soon. Already booked. But still have to check out the real of it. Yesterday my agent told me only available 4 colors...which are black, silver, gold and blue. I wished to have red but not available. So opted blue! yay...blue not bad also. What am I talking about here? hahaha. It is a new Honda City i-Vtec lah. :p Can't wait it launches in 18 Dec and test drive it. I like the outlook of it. Do you like it too? Let's see when the real car arrived :)
More details pls go http://paultan.org/archives/2008/10/13/2009-honda-city-in-depth-details-and-specifications/

Ugly Duckly Week

I'm super ugly at least for this week and may be next week as well. Why? Last Saturday I went for facial treatment. And I did a treatment calls LHE (Light Heat Energy) which helps to lighten pigmentation. This treatment is free with the facial course I signed up. I am very scare to do this treatment because it is painful treatment lor. The treatment is using a machine with laser light and inject on the pigmented area. You will feel the heat and a slight fast injection on your face. The lights burnt my baby hair on the face and you can smell the burnt smell. After the treatment you will feel the face like burning and a bit pain and red. After the treatment the freckles spots will get darker as you can see what on my face. The freckles very very obvious and dark patch. Then later it will drop off and the pigmentation lighter. However I have to bear with it for this week. Can't make up as well. Imagine how ugly I am now! sob sob :(

Feeling: It is very hard to maintain good all the time. have to sacrify e.g. pain and money. I am regret I don't take good care of my face when young. When young always expose to hot sun till spoiled my face :(. May be I was too active and that time always outdoor activities. Where got like nowadays youngster so good to have nice and comfortable gym places for exercise? Can't compare with young girls anymore. Will never be better. sigh

p/s: any beauty tips to reduce freckles don't mind share with me yah...appreciate!

I'm Loosing

I'm loosing my patience...loosing temper...loosing tolerance with someone! That's enough for time being. I just want to forget it. Stop thinking. Stop bothering. At least right now! Care free now. You like it take it. You don't like leave it!

Maxis Connection

Recently Maxis given me troubles. Wonder is it their connection problem or not. Whenever I dial a number it dropped immediately. Have to keep on dialing the number until success. I'm thinking if emergency with such problem wonder how!?! Did you facing same problem?

Hate Motorist

At this moment I am hating motorist!! Few days ago while going to work, there is this stupid motorist bang my car's left mirror until it flipped the other side and I cant see on the side anymore! Then today another one and this time right mirro! same thing bang until the mirror bend to the back and I have to adjust it. Stupid motorist. Didn't know why I met so many of them in these few days! hate! mind me and I have no respect to them...not now!

愿望

我好希望有一个人可以陪我度过一些寂寞的日子。希望这个人可以与我分享我的喜怒哀乐。有时候真的真的要这个人分担我的悲伤和烦恼！ 有个人关心事件幸福的事，但我没这福气：（好难过哟。我要得很简单，只给我多一点点关怀，多一点点关心与支持。我不要漠不关心的态度。正如我不存在或不重要的。需要时就找我，不需要时一句问候也没！心淡了。我好想好想。。也多么的希望。。。愿望。。。会达成吗？

My Wish List

Here my wish list through out the years...but wonder will it happened?

1. Getting a new car - if nothing goes wrong I'll be getting it by next year March.

2. A new house - My house is developing, estimated it is ready by next mid year. And I wish to design it to a comfortable place for myself. home sweet home.

3. Loius Vuitton Monogram Canvas handbag

4. Pink mini laptop

5. Smaller size semi dslr camera (DSLR not affortable and no time to play with it although am interested to explore)

6. Mum recover

7. Look younger and healthier and slimmer

8. Do more partime job earn more money so I can buy more things that I like =)

9. A romantic getaway with someone special

10. A simple family which I don't think I will be getting it

11. Start own biz..doing things I like to do

12. Get to know more friends

13. Be happy and no more depression with least expectation

14. Visit more places that I never been to...

15. Sponsor a child which is affortable (http://www.children.org/) but not at the moment without a stable income.

The list goes on but here the most I wanted to do/to have...

Something Hit Me

Today a bit sad with the words that friends commented on me. The comments hit me badly. Made me think about it and yet I can't do anything. Yes, I know I'm getting older...I look old. I look 'chan' = haggard. You think I want meh? Ya I know I have the problem. I'm am trying very very hard not to look like this but fail and fail and fail. Don't put salt on my wound anymore ok! Don't how much efforts I tried, don't know how much money I spent, don't know how much ways I tried....but still the same. I will never look better but getting worst. =( super sad.... Always think myself big old fat ugly ducky. =( =(. Some more said I don't have boobs anymore. yayaya I know and all these while don't have also. What can I do? I don't wish to have bigger meh? Tried many methods also cannot. I really feel unhappy listen to those words. I really hope I can change it but trying too hard but no result at all. Useless for everything. I feel tired...tired of trying hard. Tired of meeting up other's ppl requirements. Tired of pleasing others needs. Although it is also part of my expectations and objectives...however...I'm a looser...never make it. Sometimes really want to tell myself...forget it bah...you will never have it...never be there. sigh...

I'm wishing now.....

A friend of mine said I'm greedy for my wishes. But I told that I never have it b4 so I wish to have it. Someone can do it for me. I wish to have a holiday with someone I like and spend a memorable time together. I wish someone loves me and will do something surprise me...something romantic enough to touch my heart...something that I can appreciate it. And the most important is someone can understand me...what I thought...what I need...

To me...may be a small thing you do I will appreciate also. Is the thought important. You should let me feel that I'm important to you instead I am just a substitute. When need then me...when don't need leave me behind. Do I have a space in your heart? Or your family most important? Tell me please....

What a silly wish. Never happen to me. I am not that lucky. pathetic huh...sigh again....

Sorry that I show my depression again =) Suppose want to sleep early tonight but failed again. May be old already cannot sleep much. no wonder I look older and older again. Accept it bah. Meant to be like this. haha. Doze off now...ciao

BS Clearance in FF

Suppose today planned to have clearance in FF Axis but I had postponed it 2 weeks later. Reason? earlier sprain my ankle still pain. Thought of go see tit tar but yet got time. May be this weekend? Another reason is I am just back from holiday. No gym more than a week. So I need time to pick up back. Especially do BS whole class with non-stop even worst. No stamina no talk. I want to have more time to prepare for a better. Hopefully this 2 weeks will gain back and practice more. Wish me luck =D

BS Clearance in FF

Suppose today planned to have clearance in FF Axis but I had postponed it 2 weeks later. Reason? earlier sprain my ankle still pain. Thought of go see tit tar but yet got time. May be this weekend? Another reason is I am just back from holiday. No gym more than a week. So I need time to pick up back. Especially do BS whole class with non-stop even worst. No stamina no talk. I want to have more time to prepare for a better. Hopefully this 2 weeks will gain back and practice more. Wish me luck =D

California Fitness Trial

Yesterday my very first time enter California Fitness KL. Went to standard chartered one with the 1 month VIP pass I had it long long time ago. At last can use the pass. I was asked to join arjiette free style step together. yeah I like step and its been ages no join liao. Had fun and challenge for me. Lucky not too tough and still can do it but a bit lost la. Good to see someone that long time no see and esp both diva queen and cb LC bitch together. haha. ok back to Cali...I've been to BKK Cali compare to KL one a bit different especially the changing room. The classes there quite interesting...mostly freestyles. lots of dance and step classes. Since I have 1 month pass...and it is near my office. Will be going there more within this month to try out the classes.

KL Office

Consider today is my 4th day back to KL office. There are pros and cons compare last time I was stationed in customer place in subang hi-tech. Cons will be more since back to KL office. For who doesn't know...since my first day work I've already base in subang hi-tech and just 4 days old in KL office. So to me everything is new. Office area, the office itself, the other colleagues never introduced, everything totally different. All these while been working in PJ or some where far from KL. And I don't like go to KL because of the traffic jam. Still prefer PJ areas that side. Now...no choice but have to come to KL everyday. Since working in KL everyday sleep 1 hour lesser...leave home earlier...reach home later. All due to the traffic jam!! Because of this I have problem to go to gym esp always go to gym in PJ or USJ. Much further and time consuming.

2 out of 4 days here...I've been office alone. Felt very lonely. No colleagues go lunch together. Although I seldom go lunch with colleagues...because I usually brought food and never go out. Once a while will go with them. But due to just back from holiday and busy work no time to prepare the food. So have to depends on what can eat around the office area. I know a lot of things to eat here but I have no idea where lor... especially when everyone not around. Don't know where to go. The food here extremely expensive!! Calculated at least need RM20+ per day for 3 meals. Daily parking RM5 it comes to RM100 per month. Then have to pass by toll and petrol added up = HIGH EXPENSES!!! Last time in customer place toll, petrol can claim and parking free! so much different. HIGH EXPENSES + HIGH COMMITMENT = DIE!!

Have to tightened my belt eat lesser and try to bring own food to office. If not really cannot survive. Can I cope with it? Not too sure and worry....I need get more classes to cover! GXs who reads me pleaseeee :D

Due to work here and leave late I've been lazy and tired to go gym. consequences is getting FAT!!! especially just back from holiday...DIE + DIE = SUPER DIE!!! My stamina dropped like nobody biz for sure. How am I do my BS clearance next Monday? *deng*

Today monday blues....mood swinging and pissed. Due to someone something... Even today AA offers free seats and very cheap...initially plan to go a place I wish to go and with someone but end up give up...decided no go anywhere. No one interested to go, No $$$, No time blah blah blah...FORGET IT!! I know some of you get a good deal and I don't get any. =( What a day huh?!

Lead to more healthy life

The top five cancer-causing foods are:
1. Hot dogs
Because they are high in nitrates, the Cancer Prevention Coalition advises that children eat no more than 12 hot dogs a month. If you can't live without hot dogs, buy those made without sodium nitrate.
 
2. Processed meats and bacon
Also high in the same sodium nitrates found in hot dogs, bacon, and other processed meats raise the risk of heart disease. The saturated fat in bacon also contributes to cancer.
 
3. Doughnuts
Doughnuts are cancer-causing double trouble. First, they are made with white flour, sugar, and hydrogenated oils, then fried at high temperatures. Doughnuts, says Adams , may be the worst food you can possibly eat to raise your risk of cancer.
 
4. French f ries
Like doughnuts, French fries are made with hydrogenated oils and then fried at high temperatures. They also contain cancer- causing acryl amides which occur during the frying process. They should be called cancer fries, not French fries, said Adams .
 
5. Chips, crackers, and cookies
All are usually made with white flour and sugar. Even the ones whose labels claim to be free of trans-fats generally contain small amounts of trans-fats.

BRAIN DAMAGING HABITS
1. No Breakfast
People who do not take breakfast are going to have a lower blood sugar level. This leads to an insufficient supply of nutrients to the brain causing brain degeneration.
 
2. Overeating
It causes hardening of the brain arteries, leading to a decrease in mental power..
 
3. Smoking
It causes multiple brain shrinkage and may lead to Alzheimer disease. 
 
4. High Sugar consumption
Too much sugar will interrupt the absorption of proteins and nutrients causing malnutrition and may interfere with brain development.
 
5. Air Pollution
The brain is the largest oxygen consumer in our body. Inhaling polluted air decreases the supply of oxygen to the brain, bringing about a decrease in brain efficiency.
 
6. Sleep Deprivation
Sleep allows our brain to rest. Long term deprivation from sleep will accelerate the death of brain cells. 
 
7. Head covered while sleeping
Sleeping with the head covered increases the concentration of carbon dioxide and decrease concentration of oxygen that may lead to brain damaging effects.
 
8. Working your brain during illness
Working hard or studying with sickness may lead to a decrease in effectiveness of the brain as well as damage the brain.
 
9. Lacking in stimulating thoughts
Thinking is the best way to train our brain, lacking in brain stimulation thoughts may cause brain shrinkage.
 
10. Talking Rarely
Intellectual conversations will promote the efficiency of  the brain

The main causes of liver damage are:
1. Sleeping too late and waking up too late are main cause.
2. Not urinating in the morning.  

3. Too much eating. 
4. Skipping breakfast. 
5. Consuming too much medication. 
6. Consuming too much preservatives, additives, food coloring, and artificial sweetener. 
7. Consuming unhealthy cooking oil. As much as possible reduce cooking oil use when frying, which includes even the best cooking oils like olive oil. Do not consume fried foods when you are tired, except if  the body is very fit. 
8. Consuming raw (overly done) foods also add to the burden of liver.Veggies should be eaten raw or cooked 3-5 parts. Fried veggies should be finished in one sitting, do not store.

We should prevent this without necessarily spending more.We just have to adopt a good daily lifestyle and eating habits. Maintaining good eating habits and time condition are very important for our bodies to absorb and get rid of unnecessary chemicals according to 'schedule.' 

DO TAKE CARE ABOUT YOUR HEALTH.

I'm Back!

Sorry for the previous post...it was blogged using my iphone with the slow internet speed in the guest house. So just a quick one where am I.

OK...I'm back this afternoon after a few days nice holiday. Just a quick summary of my trip before I uploaded the pics and explain one by one in details. It was nice to be in a city that I never been to and see things that I never thought I would see. Different experience. Not bad apart from walking alot, walk under sun and rain, eating dust, face full of sand and dust, tan, tired and sleepy....but I enjoyed the trip with the people and places...taking many photos...learnt new things and see new things...cam whoring and shock sendiri with cameras...eat and eat and eat until donno how many pauns have gained! The food are nice. The people are nice. The temples visited are fanstastic. The indiana jones journey is nice. Overall visited over 20 temples, experienced amazing, excited, tough, romantic, super hot trip. Fun and adventure. Can't wait to see all photos.

Now back to reality...no more holiday. back to work tomorrow. I need to catch up the time. Catch up the sleep. Catch up in the gym. Been eating a lot and fat! gosh...time back to normal la. sob sob....now have to wait for another trip coming... =D Stay in tune of my next update of the trip. Hope can be up soon :p

still in Siem Reap

Today is day 3. Since day 1 till now morning out night back. Non-stop visiting places...taking pictures...taken hundreds of pictures n until battery died! Walk a lot n walk under sun. Got tan already. Last 2 days after bath then straight sleep. So tired!!! Only today now which only got time n I am blogging! Many many photos to be edited n posted up here n fb...gosh. But tat will be later ;) 2 more days to go then I will be back. Don't miss me yeah ;-)

2 More Days

Siem Reap trip is around the corner soon! It seems that out of sudden a lot of things to be settled before I go on the trip! Oh no...I feel dizzy...too many things with limited time. Past few days made many decisions and even today as well! I am not sure what I've done is right or not. Don't care anymore. Just do it and worry later bah :S. I'm very tired...didn't have much time sleep past few nights due to many things to settle and think about. Hope my decision will see the results soon in near future. Want to get better and better. In any aspects. Mean time with worries as well. Finger cross. Mixture of feelings and can't think at all at the moment.

May I see brightness in future!

So Careless

Last night went in for funky line class but end up sprain my leg :( I was super pain and walk also pain. I am having another class later. So worry I can't move. Quickly changed and went down to a pharmacy (lucky in jaya33 and got a pharmacy there!) get a spray which numb the pain for temporary. It helps a bit and not so pain. Funny thing is when do nothing but just walk it pains. But when on stage teaching I don't feel it at all. Always happened. Remember last time I had super swollen leg still dance but I don't feel the pain during dancing. haha. good also hoh. But after effect not so good to feel lah :( This morning still feel the pain while sleeping and my ankle now red and swollen. Have another class later. Can move or not? donno. don't care la. just do it. Think need to see tit tar liao. Must recover before next week trip!!

Soon

Less than a week will have a holiday trip to siem reap. You can see the count down ticking on the left of my blog =D But I am yet got the holiday mood. Still haven't prepare anything yet for the trip. Haven't change money (walah...now USD gone up!)...Haven't think of what to pack (usually I'll do last minute packing)...Don't know what is the itenerary (although ahhou sent it out but I don't remember at all!)...cos I know ahhou to incharge or it! kekeke....What else I don't and haven't? ahhh...tak tau lah. Too tired to think. May be just pack a little over the weekend. Is time to prepare bit by bit. Takut later no time. Frankly, I have no idea where am I going to!! Am I excited about it? errrmmmm don't know :p

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Next thing wanna update is currently busy settling personal stuffs and planning something big soon. But everything not confirm until the time comes.

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At work, currently am allocated at client's place. I am happy with the location because near from my house (20 mins ok lah)...most important no traffic jam. And I can claim the petrol and toll. But heard the project team soon will move back to our main office which in KL! oh no....scare traffice jam...then I have to wake up even earlier. Then scare no parking. You know la, KL so packed and limited parking. Even got also gotta pay! Now parking is free wor....then I cant claim my petrol which can cover my expenses a bit. Which means higher expenses when move back to KL office! I haven't work 1 day at the KL office since joined this company. haha. We got new office...opposite the old ones. Already booked my desk hehe. And one more thing....have to wear formal to work. Currently I just wear t-shirt and jeans to work leh. So much different.

Arrrgghhh

I was pissed that I can't sleep well lately! I was trying very hard to fall asleep although how sleepy I am. But during the sleep I can't sleep soundly. Dreamt a lot. Sleep uncomfortably. Super tired after the sleep. I was struggle get back to sleep once woke up! Although I still got time to sleep but automatically wake up and very very hard to continue the sleep. damn pissed wasted the time that I can sleep! HELP ME!!!! I'm getting haggard. I'm getting lack of sleep. I'm getting extremely tired. My panda eyes getting worst and worst. Everything just getting worst!! *cry*

Faster Internet

Yay!!! at last I have faster internet connection at home!! But........a lot of problems to be fixed!

Installed the broadband (TIME Netlynx) 2MB speed =D 2 days ago but my Aztech old modem not working! So next day go buy new Aztech modem. Yesterday try again also cannot connect...duh! Last 2 nights been configuring until I sleep late...KNS...So today the technician come fix but also unable to fix. So he just temporary loan his modem to me and mine pass to him to fix. So temporary I can use the fast speed internet connection...yippie.

But then I spent few hours with remote support from my friend only able to configure the connection thru wireless router. Lots of hiccup and frustration to setup. I think my wireless router got ghost. Very weird situations. But lucky in the end manage to solve...but now left one problem..which is wireless not working yet...sigh :( trying now...but am very tired...may be continue tmrw

PK Month!

October is really a PK month leh!!! There are so many October babies!!! gosh... Except birthdays party/dinner I've attended...also because this month is Raya month..few open house attended as well. Is not only PK month but also FAT month!!! Just eat eat eat...Is next month will slow down?? I hope so. But next month am travelling to Siem Reap wor. haiyoh... problem from knowing too many friends!

Market Research

Last night went for a market research discussion. It was my first experience. Last nite event was 2 hours discussion. But half an hour earlier they provide dinner and get to know a group of ladies. Total 9 of us (suppose 10 in a group). Once completed the discussion will get RM120 as a token. It was interesting, fun, enjoyed night. Some more can have free dinner and earn some money. hehehe

What did we do in the discussion? Basically we just sit down have a close discussion. The in-charge person will ask us questions and show us some board with the products or concepts to promote the products. Then he asked us our thoughts...our opinions. We just give what we think, comments etc. After that he will give us to taste the mockup product and give comments as well. It was beverages testing. First start with Smoothies, Milk Shake, Condensed Milk Powder (and some other sachets product inclusive condensed milk powder eg. coffee and teh tarik), extra cream powder, and the most interesting is cereals in maggie cup size just add in water. All products all in sachets or a packet form which convenience. But the taste of all drinks don't attract at all to all of us. Too bad there is no testing of cereals.

The ideas for the products some are good and not in the market yet. But is the taste not meet our expectaions. We provide ideas, what we like what we don't like and so on... Overall is a discussion. They want to get our opinions as a consumer...now I know how they do market research. Hope to have more to try next time. :D If you are interested you can register at http://www.i-respondent.com and if you match their requirements then they will call you up for this.

中医 Chinese Sinsei

Last night after work went to see a chinese sinsei. At first my plan is to go gym joining 3 classes. But while chatting with a friend, she told me I look very very tired. Suggested me to rest and see sinsei if possible. So coincident lately am looking for sinsei and she reminded me. So get a direction to the sinsei place. It is located in Botanic Garden in Bukit Tinggi. I am not familiar with the garden and lost a bit. Actually I don't have the full address but just a direction from my friend in the phone! Pandai me at last manage to find it. But took me quite some time. The sinsei is from HK and he doesn't know how to direct me to his house. Lucky got another guy beside him helps to direct me.

The sinsei just 把脉 (check my pulse from the wrist) then he told me whats my problem. And all are true! He said my waist very tired, very 躁 (restless), 涨风 (stomach bloated), mouth dry, can't sleep well, even if I sleep but I dreamt a lot, whole body aching from the sleep, and the main problem is my shoulders and back vein pulling...cause having headache and tired. Also lately I get diggy easily. His advice to stop taking the stuffs below esp the first 3 things:

- Chilis (oh no...my favourite :(....I must have chili with the food neh...but mean time have to liao )

- Fried food (this one i can skip...I don't take if possible)

- Pepper Powder (I like to have this also with soup or porridge :p)

- Cold Water

- Watermelon

- Soyabean milk (I drink sometimes without sugar one leh...gotta skip this time being)

- Beer (oh no worry...been stop drinking liao :D)

- Green bean tong shui (seldom have this..no prob)

- 薏米/凉茶 (Barley drink) (oooo....like to have barley one leh...ish ish)

- Biscuits

- Milk

Quite a long list huh!! basically is I had too much chilis cause my body heaty and if I take those cool stuffs will make my body clash lor. That's why I get diggy and tired so easily. Also notice lately very hot temper :p And also because too much chilis I had 痔苍 (hemorrhoids) and it is not surprise I still will have it if continue have chilis. So from now onwards gotta eat light food and not hot one lor....tsk tsk...

Then the sinsei wrote a long list of medicine names which I can't read at all! and gave his staff to pack for me.

 

Nah...this is the medicine he gave....1 big packet!! x3...tried drink last nite...yuck! very bitter leh :( 

苦口良药 lah!! Total bill just RM42...ok lah not that expensive.

Hopefully after finished all the medicine and plus my food intakes control will get better gua...he also suggest me sleep before 12 midnight la...I'll try!!! :D Is time to take care of my body good good. Getting old and if not later even harder...sob sob